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A temporary setback and I, out of ignorance, begin to despair. Although, perhaps slowing down may be a blessing in disguise because you alone know all the consequences. I know no generous master who is more accommodating to dissatisfied servants, than You are to me.  Oh Lord, You give an invitation, but I turn it down. You become familiar to me, but I do not care for You. You love me, but I do not respond to You, as if I am above You. Yet, you do not abstain from besto w ing favours and blessings on me from Your mercy and generosity. So have mercy on Your ignorant servant and be kind to me through the excellence of Your grace. Verily You are Generous and Kind. Praise be to Allah w ho has guided us to this; w e could not truly have been led aright if Allah had not guided us.  And therein lies the seed of all Truth and Enlightenment. There's no way any of us could have seen the light and gained any knowledge of You, had You not had mercy upon our ignorance. "In this ...

Dammit. The Problem Depression   Meaning: An important part of your life is presently in a stage of petrification. There is nothing you can do except be­come aware of the process and identify with the inner persona which is responsible. You have been lulled into resting upon the "Seat of Forgetting". You called for it yourself in order to be spared the truth. There is some­thing specific you don't want to accept, and the price you pay is darkness and emptiness.  The Way Throught the Problem The Symbolon Meaning: You are confronted by the stairway to the temple of meaning in your relationship. Don't hesitate to climb it. Your path is clear now Instead of looking for faults in your partner (that would be a step backwards), look con­sciously ahead and foster the vision of a higher goal: not a goal which serves to fulfil your subjective wants, but one leading to the birth of spiritual togetherness.  ...

  Now is the time to learn, study, and gather information. Enjoy being a student, because in the future, you will synthesize your knowledge into action. Patience Although you may be aching to begin a new project, now is not the time. You are in the vital phase of gathering right now. This means that you're acquiring new information through studying, reading, meditating, channeling, taking classes, interviewing experts, and other means. In all of life, there is a time for gathering and a time for planting. It is too soon for you to decide how you will use the new information that you're absorbing. You may have some ideas, though, so it might be wise to write them down for future use. Soon enough, you will be called into action to apply your knowledge in useful ways. When that happens, you will be very busy and work very hard. So, enjoy the present moments of ambiguity and rest. Allow yourself to be an empty vessel into which Heaven pours the contents of its l...

.... I can't help myself from looking for ya. The best remix of the entire lot. I may even like as much as the original. LOVE YOU, ADELE! Please send me some of your talent... and may you be blessed :)

"The truest form of love is how you behave toward someone, not how you feel about them." ~ Steve Hall, author My entire energy is one of a huge grimace, wincing and deep sense of remorse. Apparently, I still like using the belts and chains on myself. For being who I am, for experiencing myself as I am and behaving as I have and do. And as if by hating myself, I can change the crap I've done in the past. Fail, fail, fail. It's all a pack of lies, my emotions and motivations and reasoning. Love? For him, for myself, for friends, for family, acquaintances, for the planet? Puh-lease. That quotation says it all. It hurts and pains and makes me want to crawl into a hole because it is true. Having said that, I refuse to kill myself over the fact that I don't love people enough to be that Mother Teresa figure. It's inauthentic to the illusion of the person I am currently choosing to become right now. I think I'm going to continue doing the being authent...

Note: I don't post these up to show arrogance (or to prove how crazy I may or mayn't be ~ my marbles are in transit somewhere, I'm sure). I take out the angel cards and all the rest of it because they make me feel good. As though things are working out for me, even when I feel stuck or not where I'd like to be. And the more positivity I bring into my life, the more I'll give myself permission to lead the life I desire... and deserve. A good life, a happy life, a flowing life full of synchronicities and magic and love and peace and light and healing and hope and faith... and all that jazz. Anyway, I'm too bone tired and can't write anything right now. Too much internal processing and flushing out the old from my system and decisions that need to be made and I don't quite know when I'll find out what those are and how to bring about courage to make those decisions and changes...

What do you desire right now? Visualize it, and it will come about. Negativity will block your process. Francesca You have been asking the Universe and the angels, 'What is next for me?' Yet, we have been waiting for you to make that decision for yourself! That is why you have felt stuck lately. This impasse occurs because you are afraid of making a 'wrong' decision. We can help you to decide, but ultimately, the next chapter of your life is up to you. This is a period of your life that is unscripted. Your desires are like a painting that you create upon the canvas of your life. Like an artist, you must decide what the theme, background, and foreground will be within your picture. Take some time out to meditate, pray upon, and contemplate this important decision. Be creative, and maintain standards for yourself. But remember: If you don't make a decision, that's the same thing as deciding that everything shall remain the same. Schooling...

http://www.frederike.eu/DrawCards-AngelChantall.html New romance is imminent - either with a newcomer, or through reignited passion in your existing relationship. Be open to giving and receiving love.   Chantall You have been hungering for more romance and passion, and your prayer is answered. I am a Romance Angel, and I am here to help you. New love is on its way to you, and you can open the door to this romance by opening your heart. The more that you welcome new love with open arms, the more romance will come your way. This also means that you must express yourself romantically to your partner. Be candid about your feelings and intentions. Be playful (like we angels are!). And most of all, be openly loving with your partner as a way of encouraging the flow of romance return to you. I will give you guidance along the way, and it may involve actions that seem unrelated to romantic love. Yet, you will know it is me who encourages you to join a gym, enrol...

Thank you, Allah, for granting me such izzat and recognition. Please modify my thoughts, words, actions and feelings so that there is no need for me to have new humiliation ~ such as I have experienced in the past. Gosh ~ how I wish I could feel this purity and serenity and humility and wonder and awareness and wakefulness all of the time. Actually, I can if I make the strong intention to and ask You and the Light Ones for help and guidance. ~~~ Deity Deity by Sukaina Juma 27th April 2008 And as my Soul dug into the grass, hiding away from the joys of the world and burrowing itself deeply into the grains of mud; I could see the sky as the light faded. The blueness of sky, the whiteness of cloud, the pink of sun No tears trickled down these cheeks of mine I wasn't moved by the sight. But I was grateful that I did not have control over the entire universe. For He is able to create each day anew, while us hypocrites are left to play around with His original idea, ...

I don't think I've felt such a sense of satisfaction - since the last application I did for Westbridge Primary last month. I'm a little high, so excuse the annoying exuberance :) It will be challenging - 15 and 16 year olds...? PLEASE!!! I found them difficult to handle when I myself was that age. And it's in central London, I'd have to leave home by 6am daily... stay late, bring work home.... I've done my best, my utmost bestest thanks to everyone's support... too many to mention, but they know who they are... and, before sending it, I just said "Allah, it is done. All in Your hands now." I would have such a boost in my self esteem were I to a) firstly get the job and b) do well in it and c) shine and make a difference that influence others to shine and be influential and.... On with the other job applications now... need to shower and iron and clean house first - my dad might be coming home tomorrow. Nothing can be helped. God give me t...

    I am with you, giving you the courage to make life changes that will help you work on your Divine Life purpose. Archangel Michael I have come to you because you asked the Universe for safety and protection, and because you asked about your life purpose. Since you are a lightworker, I am overseeing the fruition of your Divine life purpose. You have been a lightworker for a long time, and you have felt different from others, isolated at times. Be assured that you have never been alone, and that you never will be alone. When you feel pushed to make a change at work or at home, that may be my influence, encouraging you to make your life's purpose a high priority. I can rearrange your schedule and support you in other ways to make your path smooth and harmonious. Simply ask me, and it is done. I will also help you feel safe and comfortable during your life's changes. ~~~ Amen. Amen. Amen. Help me with that which I don't know to want. I just don...

A happy move to a new home or place of employment is in the works. This movement will usher in positive new energy.   Celeste Yes, it is time for a move. I am working with your other angels to keep your spirit and energy high during this move. Although it may seem as if moving requires a lot of effort, when you work with me and the other angels, it can actually be a time of great joy. I will help you to find a new location, and then I will assist you with the necessary details. I will also help your other family members to adjust to the move. Just ask! All I request is your trust. Trust that the Universe and the angels are capable of finding just the right place for you. If you decide on one certain place and it doesn't work out, it is because we are bringing you something that's even better. Expect miracles to occur that allow you to afford this change. Stay positive, and don't buy into illusions or scarcity thinking. We will smooth the way, and we wi...

*ahem ahem cough cough* It appears as though my second chakra has reignited again. About ruddy time - as long as I can have a halal outlet sooner rather than later. I seriously need to get laid :p Things are happening down under and also in my heart. It's expanding and it's yearning.   Symbolon  The Problem Eros   Meaning: The card would like to remind you of the theme (and problem) of your sexuality, It wants to tell you: "Human beings can't live from the spirit alone; we have a body too". It can mean two things: either this theme was allowed to run on so long that you have dried up, or you focus on nothing but the theme itself and have become closed to everything else (surely you know which one is true). In both cases the card says: "Take more care of your sexuality". Cupid is finding its target.  The Way Throught the Problem The Garden of Spirits Meaning: The important step in your developme...

 Topic of message: To help heal this situation, see the other person's point of view with compassion. Grace and Antoinette This misunderstanding has occurred because of judgements about the other person's motives and character. To heal the situation, the judgements need to be released. Instead of seeing someone as "good" or "bad", have compassion, and know that everyone is doing the best they can. Instead of pitying someone, see that person's inner strength and Godliness. In that way, you encourage Divine light to be expressed within the other person and yourself. You are projecting something from your own shadow side onto the other person. So, this situation is an opportunity for you to clear away an ego issue. Simply affirm: 'I am willing to release that part of me that is irritated when I think of you.' We angels are helping to heal this situation miraculously so that everyone will forgive and forget judgements and act resp...

"Life is a long lesson in humility" ~ J.M. Barrie I can't even find the words, because they all sound empty. I am disappointed with myself. For remaining human. For fumbling, for still being blind and still looking to others to make me feel good (or bad) inside. For still holding envy, arrogance, competitiveness, jealousy, neediness... For still wanting a life partner. Why should I? Am I not good enough as I am now? Who gives an EFF if he's "ahead" of me, holding his hand backwards towards me, to help me up (I didn't see it, soemone else did - and that's only her interpretation)? If my connection with Allah, my angels, spirit guides, prophets and Imams aren't there - then there's no point in focussing on anybody else, is there? He's not here now, he wasn't there my entire life, was he? Whoever Travis is. I'm still alone. I'm still trying to let go of Imran completely. I still have to make my own life. I'...

I've only ever heard the songs that had videos and were played on radio or on TV. I just heard this one yesterday. And this is possibly why I like Jay Sean. Love the song. So I wasn't completely copping out when I like these artists and their songs. I tap into their soul ~ I mean, we all have the same feelings and urges deep within :) They are little boys within, who just want to be loved and cherished and treated right. Sigh.... I'm so sorry, Immy. I truly, truly am. Not that I left  you, not that I unceremoniously dumped you, but for all the nasty and confusing things I said and did. And maybe, just maybe, I made you feel that you weren't good enough for me. I did keep rejecting your gestures of affection and care. Couldn't even let you call me Suki because I felt completely vulnerable, naked and invaded. I didn't allow myself or know how to receive love (still don't). And, as for you not being right for me, in spite of my overwhelming feelings f...

Hold on, Suki (and everybody else)! It begins today and ends 10th December. As if I didn't have enough shit going on :p And the moon is now in Cancer, which makes us all nostalgic for familiar faces and the past. Which is why I'm feeling all these lovey dovey feelings for Munna (hehehe). Sigh. Repeat: the more days I waste on pining away for someone who I'm never going to get along with, the more days I remain celibate and far away from my spiritually advanced man-boy. And I realised it's a load of pressure off of me that he's further along than I currently am. Because it shows I am progressing and am going to get to where I am meant to be, with his help. I won't be able to bring down his energy the way Imran brought down mine. I won't be able to influence/smack him in the face/kick him in the butt him as nastily and crappily as Imran did me (and I possibly did to him re: my showing him to his face his unacknowledged deep rage and anger). And he'...

I pulled a few more cards today. Needed guidance and support and comfort. I usually do, on a daily and even on an hourly basis. God, now that I know, HELP ME!I sorely need help and guidance and signs and synchronicites. You know how jaahil and andha I am. I can't know unless you allow me into the Vastness of Your Knowledge. You know that and now I know that. So hellllllllllllllllllllpppppppppppppp! Ya A'alimu, Ya Nooru, Ya Hakeemu ~~~~ It is safe for you to be powerful. You know how to be powerful in a loving way that benefits others as well as yourself. Athena You have been afraid of your own power. You have worried that others would disapprove of you or leave you if you allowed your true power to shine. You have also been concerned that you might abuse your power and that your masculine energy would become unbalanced. I am here to help you reveal your power to yourself and others in a way that enhances your relationships, self-esteem, and life pur...

It's not Imran. I had a wellness reading last night after sending healing to my dad, Leah's friend and to all those who are open to receiving healing in St. George's Hospital. Imran is pulling me back, I'll regress if I go back to him because his energy will pull me down (sound familiar?) My new guy is actually quite a way ahead of me in his personal development and spiritual journey and is holding his hand out to pull me toward him. How ANNOYING IS THAT? I should be ahead - ME!!! ;) If I choose to go back and contact Imran, I'd be even farther away from him and replicating the utter madness. And really being the masochist, enjoying pain and stagnation. I will not go back for ANYBODY, not even Immy. I do NOT want a jalebi wedding, thank you very much. When he wants me to help him heal his life, he can bloody well ask me energetically (which I think he has been, I just haven't bothered because I, and then my parents and other loved ones,...

Somehow, last night before I went to sleep, my subconscious told me it was perfectly okay to email Imran before Ramadhan began so as to "bury the hatchet" and become friends... I spent a few hours formulating my email. I woke up and was still thinking it was okay. That I had forgiven and wanted to just be forgiven in order to move onto my next dude (had a dream about him the night before. The energy was of my guy's but the face was of that dude from EastEnders. Or maybe something. I dunno. I thought perhaps this is my intuition, guidance. Then the thought came to me that the wanker couldn't even be bothered to send me an Eid card last Eid - when he sent one to everyone else. And I said "Hell no, WTF are you thinking Sukaina? Intuition and guidance, my ass. It's just a sense of lack and boredom and a means of distraction. Don't forget that, whilst you have changed, he may have NOT!" Okay, so I think I am ready once again to start sending out r...

I posted this on the Energetic NLP Yahoo groups the day after my dad had the surgery to remove his left bowel, which would have poisoned and killed him if he hadn't gone to hospital on Friday afternoon or had that surgery immediately: Saturday, 6am  Hello Everyone, I'd like to request you to send distant healing to: 1) My father, Ibrahim (in ICU after operation) 2) me (been struggling in general, overwhelm, etc and need to cope, need to access support of bigger selves and all the rest of it) 3) My mother, Masooma (health stuff) Thank you! Suki :) ~~~ Hi Suki, I have been sending some healing energy your way and towards your parents. I am really getting that as you grow and evolve, they do too and it feels like there are several contracts that are being revised by your inner wisdom and spirit to help this process. I am also getting to tell you that the more you concentrate on allowing your spirit to guide you through this massive healing tim...