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http://images.pictureshunt.com/pics/p/peace_quote-2206.jpeg I started freaking out last night after watching the news about the rioting. Prayed salaat, and felt a little better after sending healing and du'a. Then again, this morning, felt scared to go out for my appointment with Mark the employment advisor dude. He had asked me to go in to Sutton. Also, just sad that people have lost their businesses and their homes... and now have read that a man died from the Croydon riots last night. And also, really sad to see that the people who are doing this are in nasha and in the dark - and that I am no better than they... because they are my shadow. Our society's shadow rising to the surface, so we can deal with it appropriately this time, one hopes. Olive sent a mass email this morning: she and Di had arranged for a special Change The world session in the evening for the UK. Felt such a sense of peace after reading it - peace, peace, peace... salaam! Yes, I can finally...

I feel I have finally, finally forgiven you. You will always be remembered, blue-font boy. Although, having said that, most of my memories are actually fading away. I do love you, just in a different way from the Eros-inspired love I felt for you a few months ago. Is this what they call universal love? Unconditional love? Who knows... I still regret that we may never speak again. But... it is as it is. May you be happy. May you be healthy. May you find it within to give and receive unconditional love. May you finally forgive me, too.

Tarot Card Interpretation & Meaning - (20) Judgment Introduction: Judgment can be a card about jumping to conclusions, decisions and judgments. which are too hastily made. If you are prone to such things, this is a clear signal to slow down and give things more thought and to give people "more chances." This can be a real time of spiritual awakening.           General: In general, if you are the one tending to jump to conclusions, you can put a stop to it. If others are making these kinds of decisions about you or about someone you care for, there is really very little you can do, apart from realizing that it's their problem, not yours. Health: This is an important time to let go of the past and any wrongs that you perceive were done to you, particularly if you are dealing with chronic medical issues. Letting go of your need to be right will go a long way toward helping you to feel better. Besides, if ...

Your Type Four EnneaThought for January 13th— Reflect on your childhood today. As a child, did you believe you were not like your parents? Did you feel that you were not "seen" by your parents and that you did not connect sufficiently with your parents? As an adult, what does this have to do with you now? (The Wisdom of the Enneagram, 182) As I've said myriad times before, these things just slap me in the face with a wet fish most days. I suppose it makes sense that I should send Reiki healing to my relationships with my father and my mother. Haven't really done that for ages. It's too hard sometimes, I choose to ignore and avoid dealing with them mainly because these are the two people I've been connected with since birth. A lot of effort is required in order to 'let things slide'. Living with my dad is hell, and I'm co-creating it on purpose, as part of my desire to annoy, to hurt him the way he hurts me. My mum, well, I guess we'...

Je ne dois pas m'expliquer à personne. I don't have to bend over backwards so as to not offend. I can swear as much as I bloody well want to. I don't have my hands bound to my neck with chains, nor are my legs shackled to a wall inside a Khoja-run mosque. I don't have to initiate any more emails, online chat sessions, texts or phone calls. (Prank calls, my ass.) And I don't have to respond to them either, and eat up my pay-as-you-go credit. I don't have to bleed my heart and soul dry for an emotionally frigid piece of meat. I don't have to make up the perfect relationship in my head while completely rejecting and avoiding what was real because of my neuroses and fears and anger. I can satisfy my highly idealistic and romantic daydreams without touching reality (or a man) for a while longer.  I don't have to send you metta or reiki or take out your I Ching anymore. I can call and label you whatever I want: wanker, man-boy, mama's boy...

Imran Lakha ‎ "...you will only be remembered by those that loved you because you are truthful, not by those who don't have a heart." 18 hours ago via BlackBerry From: Imran Lakha (ilakha) To: Sukaina Juma Sent: Fri, 12 November, 2010 10:08:43 Subject: RE: Keep your cojones handy... Wa Aliaykum Salaam Sukaina, I don’t have a reply for you. In fact personally you need to work through your situation and i will work through mine. I am here if you need me. Ws, Imran. ~~~ I never thought it would really be this hard. But the pain, the burning, I'm beginning to get accustomed to it. It feels familiar. I wouldn't say I like it - not yet... it just seems necessary...

Suki, now you can truly grieve and gain closure - c'est finis!!! Try to smile through your tears, ok? It was never going to happen. You're still too screwed up. You have so many other important things to do with your life than meet someone, marry, have sex..... ewwwwww gross! It was too Khoja a set-up anyway. You didn't even have the guts to meet him. Little girl. Little delusional girl. Well, at least this brought Sidra and EFT into your life. And clarity and God's support about your life purpose. And you were happy for a little while. Be kind to yourself and stay away from the junk food shit. Please. And away from traffic - that's easy enough: I'm at home. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Today 14:55 :P "even if you cannot be nice"? How much of a domantrix do you imagine me to be? argh 14:55 a very big one! lol 14:55 replace with meanie 14:55 lol Inshallah i'll remember that one how are you? 14:56 Well, I can say the same about you :P 14:56 lol :) seriousl...

Completely impulsive act. Even found a guy who seems more in tune with me (he's watched La Haine - although, granted, I didn't finish it!) and my way of thinking. I feel completely over Imran. Il est un étranger, encore. What's going on??? Nasha khatam, kya? My new profile is markedly different than the one Imran saw: reflective of the change in three months! Merci, my little man-boy! My favourite film is.. Paradise Now The English Patient About A Boy Pulp Fiction Benny and Joon Good Will Hunting La Grande Seduction Bridget Jones' Diary About Frankie Children of Heaven Empire of the Sun Jab We Met Dil Se My favourite film is.. Paradise Now The English Patient About A Boy Pulp Fiction Benny and Joon Good Will Hunting La Grande Seduction Bridget Jones' Diary About Frankie C...