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Remember how insanity is doing something in the same manner and expecting different results? Here's proof what did I repeat? Listening to Sidra's suggestion about going on the website Caving into what might have been intuition and also impulsivity about going back onto the same bloody website I met Imran on Putting my photos up Having to say no to the men I am not interested in and having those I was interested in back off or show no interest or decency to respond writing what I think is an honest and truthful and yet compassionate email and then getting a response like the  one I got from Akhlaq below emails like this: 14-09-2011 Salaam Akhlaq, Thanks for taking out the time from to email - I am sure it must be a really busy time for you! InshaAllah your surgery will go well on Monday and please don't worry about replying to me - you take your  time and do what needs to be done with uni and your health and your life :) To be honest, I think I'm go...

Beware of unconsciously expecting friends and intimates to be a dumping ground for your emotional upheavals. People who care about you want to be there in any way they can, but you cannot demand that they parent you or that they take the brunt of your childhood issues. (The Wisdom of the Enneagram, 201) I have £8.40 in library overdue fines. I need to travel into London to collect stuff that (actually I asked for) from Kishwar aunty. And now Mark from Remploy has set me a "challenge" so, if I agree, I have to spend more money on travel fares this Tuesday to meet him at Caffé Nero in Southwark, Waterloo for our appointment, just so I get a sense of journey time, planning, getting ready for interviews and for work in Central London. I know I shall have to say yes. The means justify the end. I chuckled when I read the email, Caffé Nero was where Imran wanted to meet me. Fuck. Now, eight months later, I'm okay with meeting people (men) alone, by myself. Improvem...