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Art was so right in giving us these sheets of paper in order to appreciate the others - I wish I had given more out. It's tough when you're processing all the emotions, are completely in an altered state and have to write them all out before people start leaving. I wish I had given Gabriele one, never mind whatever in me keeps getting lit up around him. He wrote me such a nice one. Wish I had given Anne Smith one as well, never mind how I feel about our interaction on the email a few weeks ago. I've been feeling sad and crappy all day. I'm going to keep these chits of paper for ages. My fuel for the challenging times. *** I really enjoyed getting to know you today - you have a refreshing openness and energy ~ Janie Thank you for choosing me ~ Karen x Thank you for being gentle with my energy ~ Leah x Thank you for your healing and insights! ~ Leah x Suki, Thank you for having a great energy. I feel sure great things are ahead for you ~ Yvonne x Suki...

I'm writing here to shift all that has gotten triggered within me since this morning. How I wish I could open up the locks that are on the doors to my true life, the core of my being and doing. How I wish I could act wisely and with full awareness and mindfulness all the time. And I have to accept and embrace my humanness. How easy it is to feel so good and capable of helping others to transform their lives and then to trip over the same stumbling block of spiritual arrogance. I, once again, fell back into that old, ragged pattern of trying to impose healing on others according to how well certain methods have worked for me. And look at how easily I feel good one day and so I ignore the fact that it's always me who needs the healing the most, and that I am always going to be the only one who is willing to receive all the healing I can get through the ways I have learned are working for me now. They don't work for everyone. So, why would I insist? Who cares if...

I was right the first time. I intend for it to be empowering for me, for my dad, for my mum and for everyone. Liberating myself is the way to abundance, prosperity and the making of me. I need to heal myself and continue my path. And then I can help others. Allah, help me get the best. All trust is in you. You are the Manifestor. And I shall silence my mind to hear what it is You are telling me. Ya Ali madad. More Guidance The Farewell Meaning: You would like to remain in the protective shell of your surroundings but some aspect of your life has become too "hard". There is a danger of your roots driving down so deep that you can never find the strength again to free yourself. That's why fate has ordained deportation. It assists in your passage to freedom and personal growth.

I asked Him: You are as I like, make me as you like. It was spontaneous in emotion, well-versed in Arabic. And He told me before I had even finished "But you are as I like". Right now. In the past. Always. And then the beautiful verse recited itself to me in the most clear and enchanting voice, as verification: "And when My servants ask you concerning Me, then surely I am very near; I answer the prayer of the supplicant when he calls on Me, so they should answer My call and believe in Me that they may walk in the right way." This is His answer. It didn't come in the way is would approve of, but, now I think of it, they never have. I am not walking the right path the way they told me I should, or the only way it is possible, and that's possibly the best thing ever. I validate all my experiences. I love them. I bless them. How else can I be whole, otherwise? Even now, this stifling blackness, blindness, inability to truly receive.... I bless ...

"Stop judging yourself" "You are where you are." "Why can't you see that you're already spiritual?" "You are loved, accept it." "Why is it so difficult to love ourselves?" Therasa "I don't know..." Sukaina

I applied for a job today. First application in 6 months. Receptionist/telephonist in Morden. I did the Wheel yoga pose today. For the first time I have ever been able to do it. I am finally receiving that which was always rightfully mine. It is rightfully mine.Always was, is and will be mine. I'm a little miffed that it has been withheld or I have not been able to recevie it up until now, but what can one do but let the rensentment, frustration, pain and hurt pass through me? I am getting the perfect, exciting, fulfilling first job and moving into a wonderful new living space. In the next three months. It is happening. Money, prosperity, freedom, fulfilling work, connection, friendship, likeminded-individuals, opportunities to receive and give, complete connection with my guidance and intuition, opportunities to shine my love and light, confidence, faith, trust, love with the right soul mates, romance, committment, direction, guidance, healing: come hither.

The Problem Deliverance   Meaning: You don't want to accept the passing of a secure phase. Growth is long overdue and it is high time you hatched from the egg. The protective shell may well have to be broken open from outside because you are too fright­ened to choose to leave narrow boundaries. The Way Throught the Problem The Master Meaning: The way through the problem is to learn to take life's gravity into account. The game's over - now you have to confront your problems honestly. It's all about be­coming an "adult".         The Outcome Matter and Spirit Meaning: You know that your own insights (spiritual creations) are only true for you. No one can buy them, and nor can they be sold to anyone else. They like to be self-styled; "handmade", s...

Dear God, Give me the motivation and strength to do all of this. Because I sure as hell have wanted to do this for years. And, now, out of my cage and energy finally flowing properly, love and guidance around me... Let me make sense of it all. Let me create a ruddy plan. Now.

This is what I want. Desperately. NOW. Some of this is definitely true. Other things are happening now, or to happen this month. I'm setting the strong intention that this is so. I really *insert swear word* want this. A case of things happening before I feel them? Delayed reactions - again... Not used to working with higher frequencies and energies, my ARSE!

It's been building up. And today, there is a massive lump, an energetic stone in my throat. Could be unshed tears (I haven't cried in three weeks and am very pleased about that). Could be the fact there is stuff that needs to be said, but I can't for the life of me figure out a) what it is b) how to say it c) who it is I am to say it to. My tongue and my typing hands have gotten me into a lot of, a lot, A LOT of trouble. There have been many things said and many thing written that make me cringe, that make me shudder, that make me DETEST myself for being so pathetic, for attempting to manipulate people because they won't do things willingly, that they can't see. Or that I think I need them when I never really did. I made them into my idols. I am not going to make the same mistakes. So, I am going to be "patient" and suck it up and, if possible, try to deal with the emotions in the new way I've been taught. My ego is bursting forth again,...