Isle of Skye

There’s so much I have to accomplish to nurture my soul and be-come. The question is, with the two years of mine gone away like a butterfly’s life, will I be able to do it all? I’d like to be optimistic and say yes, but I realise that there are many things which wouldn’t be priority and can be relegated or set aside in the hopes I can achieve them as part of a reward from the most high on a another plane. So many things, so little time. So then, is applying for a copy editing post the way to go for me? I fit the bill, it will PAY the bills. I shall see if I get an offer and then do the soul searching, I think. Being a book cataloguer at Paramount Books, well I’m not even qualified for it. And doing office work with business letters, NO. What a waste of my genius. Aha ha ha. But I think I should still apply because I do need the money, if nothing else, then to pay back my mum for at least some of the expense. Today was a bad day Reiki wise, no meditations, no healing done. A good ...

I am in the process of positive change I am unfolding in fulfilling ways. Only good can come to me. (Only good can come from me.) I now express health, happiness, prosperity and peace of mind. I tried to Reiki the newborn kittens, but they just bounce and bounce and bounce around. The white one's already got his full set of teeth and bites like a maniac! ow! Ils sont très moignons et c'est vraiment un dommage je ne peux pas les garder, les nourrir et les adopter.

I Want It So Bad Learn to transform unhealthy desires. By Sally Kempton First, bring your desire fully into awareness. Notice the words associated with it. Pay special attention to the emotional quality of the desire and the thoughts you have about it. Notice the emotional state it induces. Are you excited, uncomfortable, nervous, anxious, elated? Once you've identified the desire and how it makes you feel, ask yourself the following helpful questions: How does this desire fit in with my greater priorities? Is it beneficial to other people as well as to myself? Will following this impulse hurt me or others? What will I have to give up if I follow this desire? Does it take me closer to my higher Self, or will it create more barriers between my soul and myself? What will I have to give up if I don't follow it? What do I really want by getting what I want? After you've figured out what you really want, voice it. Articulate it. Make it real. Even if it's something vague, li...

Fasting provides self-discipline in an undisciplined age. The age in which we live despises discipline. When was the last time you saw a TV commercial with a slogan like one of these: • Buy this TV later, after you actually have the cash. • Eat just one of our chips, so you can have some tomorrow. • Do you really need a new car? Your old one still works fine. • Friends don't let friends drink. Period. Fasting offers a way to impose self-control in your life; it gives you a "splash in the face" to awaken you to the need for the personal strength of will that you need to grow spiritually. When you restrain yourself physically, you'll find it easier to apply this same self-discipline in your spiritual life.

Firdaus Haider (our Reiki master) recommended this site. http://www.gogratitude.com/masterkey/ after going through this, check out http://www.worldgratitude.com I've only browsed through, but I love the idea of showing gratitude for things before you receive them. because we all know how racious He is and if we pray with complete conviction and certainty (thanking Him in advance) then why would He not accept our prayers? But we've got to realise that soon is a relative term. the day of judgement is 'soon' and the Earth has been in exisence for a million plus years. So... also, He told Musa (as) his dua to free the Israelites will be answered soon, it was answered after 40 years. Wouldn't it be so great if the Islamic scholars would be as creative as this? I hope I can do my bit, as I envision it. Oh yes, so it shall be. It's weird how small this dunya is. Haider Ghaznavi (Salahuddin's elder brother, Umair's cousin and a former schoolmate at FPS) has got...

All is well in my world Everything is working out for my highest good. Out of this situation only good will come. I am safe! Well, let's see how long I can keep this affirmation up today. Mercury flowing throughout my spine today. Restlessness. Irritation over my new cloth bleeding colour all over, and for me neglecting to add salt because of my megalomaniac, magical thinking. Me realising that right now is probably not the time to go to London, whether for a visit or to live, and certainly not the the time to study counselling. Oh, no. I need to do a lot before I can get to that place. Question is, I need a job so which one will I apply to that won't end up killing my soul. Me hating March and April because it's crunch time for students and they don't have time to reply to your email. Me feeling sensations in my left side and, for the first time ever, not even after chiropractic, have I felt any real sensation in my left breast....

I need guidance and direction, I need to get over the side effects of the clearing out process. I need balance and stability and the abandoning of superstitions and or magical thinking, such as false love or comradeship. I need to start the creative process all over again. I need God and I need to not a waste a moment more of my life. I need to become fluent in le français and reconnect with those I've left or have chosen to be left behind. Like, how accurate are the internet tarot, runes and bibliomancy? why am i putting so much effort into them? Why am I putting so much effort into Umair? Why can't I just QUIT him? Is it boredom? along with all the other fathomable psychological and spiritual crises and ego stuff. Why am I longing for an irresponsible and confused 18 year old boy just because of his good looks? That's squalid. not the 18 year old bit, the good looks bit. I will choose to marry wisely, IA. Let's see what kind of image I choose to protray here today. It...

to be said daily before doing the power sign: cho-ku-re What are the Reiki Ideals? Just for today: 1. I will not use anger 2. I will use kindness 3. I will be full of gratitude 4. I will do my work honestly 5. I will not indulge my worrying mind

Oh Allah, aidez moi... I understand that because of the Reiki and unleashing or unblocking of the energy that lies within and without, I am having these very bizarre and lucid dreams. But seriously, did today's have to focus quite so much on Umair. To the point where I'm dreaming of his parents and him being depressed and and him deciding whether or not he wants to be in a relationship with me and me loving him so much. I mean, come on! all that just cannot be suppressed into my subconsciousness and a part of wish fulfillment, can it? I had better pray my salaat today. My soul is aching for it, but I still listen to my nafs and Satan and my body is so tired. The good news is I've slept. Amazing sleep, sans les médications. I'm making up for two entire weeks. I slept all day yday. And I have three new kittens to name... ah, their fur is so soft. All Praise is for Allah. The things in need to remove from my system are: impulsivity short sightedness greed conceit lack of f...

will i be able to benefit through reiki? The Twisting Path spread provides insight into the path ahead of you and the choices you must make. This is the spread for situations where more than one pitfall may lie ahead. The William Blake Tarot explores the mystical vision and artistry of the renowned English painter and poet. Through rich interpretations focused on creative undertakings, it has long been the deck of choice for artists, writers, musicians, and thinkers. There are only a few autographed copies of the Blake Tarot left, so if you want one, buy it now ! The card at the lower left, represents the first decision along your path. Assessment : A need to be fair and just. A situation involving judgments or balancing the issues. Consideration of commitments, agreements, or negotiations. Weighing the pros and cons of a situation. E...

nauroz Mubarak even though i, once again, screwed it up this year. IA, next year, I'll have done it to my satisfaction. This had to be posted as well. will i be able to benefit others through reiki? The Creative Process spread is designed specifically to peer into the nature of a project or creative undertaking, and shine a spotlight on the evolution of its parts. The William Blake Tarot explores the mystical vision and artistry of the renowned English painter and poet. Through rich interpretations focused on creative undertakings, it has long been the deck of choice for artists, writers, musicians, and thinkers. There are only a few autographed copies of the Blake Tarot left, so if you want one, buy it now ! The card in the middle represents the creative force behind the project , be it a person, organization, or other entity. Assessment : A need to be fair and just. A situation involving judgments or balancing the issues. Consideration of commitments, agreements, or...

I wasn't meant to meet up with Farhat this time. Perhaps therapy just isn't right for me. Anyway, I'm dull, depressed and weepy today. I wouldn't have made much sense, with the lack of sleep et al. Sukaina Juma In a way she was very lucky to have been 20 when she died. She missed out on the entire rebellion and well, all the crap that we 20-somethings continue to go through, carrying on from our adolescence. All the increments in our misdeeds and sins. She was saved from it all. May Allah bless her, increase her station and give her family peace.

I feel as though I should write something, it's been a week since my last post. But there's just not anything positive to write about. My last Thursday's therapy was perhaps the worst session I've had. I went in with the intention of taking a break from it all. i told her as much and Dr Z. seemed a bit reluctant to do so and I myself, i typical INFP manner, also felt that perhaps I'm jumping the gun after 20 sessions and expecting any sort of change. but then she said a few things that really pinched me, and i don't think i can forgive her for those comments. 1. You have a lot of defiance in you (as though it were always a bad thing) 2. I'm doing my job, Sukaina also has to be willing to change. 3. If you're not willing to change, then nothing's going to happen, is it? It didn't occur to me at the time, but why is it always an insistence that I must change and only in the way that she envisions? Anyway, when i got home, i just mentioned to my mot...

Contradictory states. That's what one of the runes (to be named after I look it up) says I am in right now. Hope. Envy. not paradoxical states. The paradox of hope is despair. Of envy, contentment, I suppose. Another sleepless night. And this is after doing 25 minutes of nighttime yoga. Night number four and other people are getting touchy because I am getting no sleep. Go figure. Managed to catch Q uarterlife again tonight. Such good looking people they cast, can fool you into thinking you see or know that many good looking people in real life. L ol . As if. And when Dylan and Eric finally kissed, I swear, something happened in my navel chakra , like a bevy of yellow butterflies doing pirouettes or something. And at least Dylan has a job, even if she is selling out. She does need to earn money, we all do. I do. Hope. For what? that I'm actually going to be able to do all the things I want to, that I will find a way out off this ice prison and fly and grow and e-l- aborate (a...