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I don't think I've felt such a sense of satisfaction - since the last application I did for Westbridge Primary last month. I'm a little high, so excuse the annoying exuberance :) It will be challenging - 15 and 16 year olds...? PLEASE!!! I found them difficult to handle when I myself was that age. And it's in central London, I'd have to leave home by 6am daily... stay late, bring work home.... I've done my best, my utmost bestest thanks to everyone's support... too many to mention, but they know who they are... and, before sending it, I just said "Allah, it is done. All in Your hands now." I would have such a boost in my self esteem were I to a) firstly get the job and b) do well in it and c) shine and make a difference that influence others to shine and be influential and.... On with the other job applications now... need to shower and iron and clean house first - my dad might be coming home tomorrow. Nothing can be helped. God give me t...

Art was so right in giving us these sheets of paper in order to appreciate the others - I wish I had given more out. It's tough when you're processing all the emotions, are completely in an altered state and have to write them all out before people start leaving. I wish I had given Gabriele one, never mind whatever in me keeps getting lit up around him. He wrote me such a nice one. Wish I had given Anne Smith one as well, never mind how I feel about our interaction on the email a few weeks ago. I've been feeling sad and crappy all day. I'm going to keep these chits of paper for ages. My fuel for the challenging times. *** I really enjoyed getting to know you today - you have a refreshing openness and energy ~ Janie Thank you for choosing me ~ Karen x Thank you for being gentle with my energy ~ Leah x Thank you for your healing and insights! ~ Leah x Suki, Thank you for having a great energy. I feel sure great things are ahead for you ~ Yvonne x Suki...

Bonne anniversaire à moi! Madiha Muffin. I still have no words. I shall not be able to forget this day, even if I try really hard. What was going to be an extremely crappy day, you managed to turn it a complete 180 degrees into one of the best days. Who cares if I am alone today? You've shown me how generous YOU are and how much YOU care about me. My life is a movie today. I usually try to downplay how much I like being made a fuss off on my birthday. I'm such a sap! But the gesture is so... j'ai pas de mots. Mes belles fleurs And yesterday, my friend Saima gave me the Darren Hayes "Spin" CD, chocolates, cupcakes and her mum made me mince pasties and we had crisps and... sigh (even  when I told her we would defer the present-giving until I found something I wanted). She tried to cheer me up. She took time out of her busy life schedule, even though she was really tired, she didn't cancel and she ignored my gloominess (I was more Eeyore than...

“Forgiveness is the fragrance that the violet sheds on the heel that has crushed it.” Mark Twain So, I've wasted the entire day doing nothing but being on the PC the entire day. Well, I researched the courses I wanted to do. And did some yoga. But still... grrr. Better do my meditations and set goals for tomorrow. And go out. And do some gardening. Trust. Feel the loneliness and slight desperation you feel about finding someone and unease you feel about your sustenance and let it go through the "body of glass". Pray to Allah. All is possible. Love this song, btw. It's a perfect song. His voice is like satin. Now this one is on constant replay, making me feel like I'm missing something. I AM NOT. If I am single, it's because that's what is best for me now. When I was in a relationship, that was what was best for me then. Doh. And the disintegrating of the relationship was what was best at the time. And the fact that we are not in co...

That Art Giser dude knows what he's doing. I did the webinar earlier on. I feel my energy is now at thirteen per cent. Trust and faith is slowly trickling in. I was able to sing again today. Oh Allah. I only have You. No effing body but You. Numerology, nah. Intuition not there. Had no idea when I rang Aunty Shaista that her house had been burgled last night. So stressful. You fear for your safety for months afterwards, sometimes. My face skin's cleared up after a week of shitty flaking, bleeding and cracking. I even feel like buying a Maltesers Easter egg, splurging with £1. Except Sainsbury's offer is now gone haha. Allah, keep me safe from my father's ire and threats and evil intents until I move out OF MY OWN ACCORD. Open up the floodgates of Your abundance for me. You are abundant. Ipso facto, I AM ABUNDANT.