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Turning the dark into gold




I posted this on the Energetic NLP Yahoo groups the day after my dad had the surgery to remove his left bowel, which would have poisoned and killed him if he hadn't gone to hospital on Friday afternoon or had that surgery immediately:

Saturday, 6am 

Hello Everyone,

I'd like to request you to send distant healing to:


1) My father, Ibrahim (in ICU after operation)


2) me (been struggling in general, overwhelm, etc and need to cope, need to
access support of bigger selves and all the rest of it)


3) My mother, Masooma (health stuff)


Thank you!


Suki :)

~~~

Hi Suki,

I have been sending some healing energy your way and towards your parents. I am really getting that as you grow and evolve, they do too and it feels like there are several contracts that are being revised by your inner wisdom and spirit to help this process. I am also getting to tell you that the more you concentrate on allowing your spirit to guide you through this massive healing time, the more effect you will see for yourself and those around you. 

All my love
Gen
xx
~~~
I cannot believe I didn't take him earlier. Guilt is a useless emotion, and I have to be mindful and acknowledge the guilt in order to focus on the now.

My shadow is almost too horrible to look in the eye.

Three days of intense pain. And me? Not a single shred of compassion or empathy. Not one single shred.

Allah, please forgive me. Please forgive me. Please forgive me. And help me forgive myself and my father.

This is too much non forgiveness and begrudging and resentment for me to hold for any one person in my life.

Let this be the time, the time I forgive him completely and let it end here.

And grant me strength for all that is to follow from this very moment.

Amen.

Fucking hell.


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