Isle of Skye

Remember how insanity is doing something in the same manner and expecting different results? Here's proof what did I repeat? Listening to Sidra's suggestion about going on the website Caving into what might have been intuition and also impulsivity about going back onto the same bloody website I met Imran on Putting my photos up Having to say no to the men I am not interested in and having those I was interested in back off or show no interest or decency to respond writing what I think is an honest and truthful and yet compassionate email and then getting a response like the  one I got from Akhlaq below emails like this: 14-09-2011 Salaam Akhlaq, Thanks for taking out the time from to email - I am sure it must be a really busy time for you! InshaAllah your surgery will go well on Monday and please don't worry about replying to me - you take your  time and do what needs to be done with uni and your health and your life :) To be honest, I think I'm go...

"Life is a long lesson in humility" ~ J.M. Barrie I can't even find the words, because they all sound empty. I am disappointed with myself. For remaining human. For fumbling, for still being blind and still looking to others to make me feel good (or bad) inside. For still holding envy, arrogance, competitiveness, jealousy, neediness... For still wanting a life partner. Why should I? Am I not good enough as I am now? Who gives an EFF if he's "ahead" of me, holding his hand backwards towards me, to help me up (I didn't see it, soemone else did - and that's only her interpretation)? If my connection with Allah, my angels, spirit guides, prophets and Imams aren't there - then there's no point in focussing on anybody else, is there? He's not here now, he wasn't there my entire life, was he? Whoever Travis is. I'm still alone. I'm still trying to let go of Imran completely. I still have to make my own life. I'...