I need guidance and direction, I need to get over the side effects of the clearing out process. I need balance and stability and the abandoning of superstitions and or magical thinking, such as false love or comradeship. I need to start the creative process all over again. I need God and I need to not a waste a moment more of my life. I need to become fluent in le français and reconnect with those I've left or have chosen to be left behind. Like, how accurate are the internet tarot, runes and bibliomancy? why am i putting so much effort into them? Why am I putting so much effort into Umair? Why can't I just QUIT him? Is it boredom? along with all the other fathomable psychological and spiritual crises and ego stuff. Why am I longing for an irresponsible and confused 18 year old boy just because of his good looks? That's squalid. not the 18 year old bit, the good looks bit. I will choose to marry wisely, IA. Let's see what kind of image I choose to protray here today. It...