Isle of Skye

The short story transforms into a novella. Question is: will I allow it to become a novella, novel or epic saga? Is it meant to be? Are we up for it? I know I am not, not at the moment. Nouvelle chapitre: I made a decision on the night of his birthday, 28th November. No, I didn't wish him a Happy Birthday. Didn't want to, so didn't. It came from my Higher Self. Guiding me back on track. I deleted all his email addresses, took him off from Yahoo Messenger and blocked him from SimplyShia but then they hid all the messages he sent me, which isn't quite what I wanted. So I unblocked him so I could keep the lines of communication open - and refer to the imbecilic messages when I was bored or wallowing. Good my intuition/God guided me to do that. After what has transpired this morning. I also deleted him from FB at around 9 AM yesterday - a-ha, you didn't think I'd be able to do that, now did you? SURPRISEEEEEE! I had to make a firm commitment to mys...

Not bored enough to pray, mind you. Or shower (yes, yes... go on, whatever! I showered less than 24 hours ago :p) I'm just wanting things to move, to go on smoothly. I want to be in love - I love being in love - not being imbecilically obsessed as I am now - sigh - but just in love. A mature, balanced love. I want someone to be on FB chat so I can chat to them. There's absolutely nobody and the one person I messaged asking her to help me procrastinate, she just went offline! Umair's busy, Tazeen's got a life, argh, argh, argh. November, turn into December so I can start feeling less lonely and fat. I really don't want to gain all that weight back. Argh. Argh. Argh. I wish I lived in North London, Hujjat is so much better than Hyderi. Bigger, too. Where are you Imran? What are you doing? Argh! Spoke to my mum about the entire thing. She told me, I did the same thing with Uncle (her second ex-husband) and I'm like: yeah, love makes us all paagal . She laughed at t...