Isle of Skye

  Today is about letting go, and there may be a restructuring or release of a friendship. Your priorities are changing, and today is about forgiveness, tolerance, and exercising compassion. Fast Facts About the Number 9 Theme: Encompassing a love for all, Compassion, Patience, Selfless Astro Association: Virgo Tarot Association: Hermit  Allah, thank you.... today started really challenging... the energies were all around me, buzzing, I was going insane.... I went for a walk, trees, park, lay on the grass in the rain, asking to be cleared, asking for your grace, asking for some help..... And I had to rush back because my dad scared me about having a heart attack and going to A&E now... I spoke to so many of your angels... got Ashiya's email, Sarah's email, Marium's chat, Marium's call, Farhat aunty, Sarah, my mum, Sidra... and Ali finally replied to my texts finally... he's an Aquarius, got his full DOB and time and place and did all the astro stuff......

The BESTEST OneRepublic song. I listened to it when I was with him, when I wasn't with him... and, again, today. Signs from the Universe. Synchronicities - I'll pretend it is so. One Republic - Say (All I Need) lyrics Do you know where your heart is? Do you think you can find it? Or did you trade it for something Somewhere better just to have it? Do you know where your love is? Do you think that you lost it? You felt it so strong, but Nothing's turned out how you wanted Well, bless my soul You're a lonely soul Cause you won't let go Of anything you hold Well, all I need Is the air I breathe And a place to rest My head Do you know what your fate is? And are you trying to shake it? You're doing your best and Your best look You're praying that you make it Well, bless my soul You're a lonely soul Cause you won't let go Of anything you hold Well, all I need Is the air I breathe And a place to rest My head I sai...

Today, explore the issue of boundaries. As a Four, are you so self-absorbed that you assume everyone is interested in your feelings and inner world? Can you refrain from talking about yourself so much—especially when it is not appropriate? Man, if anything was more geared towards my current frame of mind, it would be on a cactus rammed up my arse! I keep messing things up, don't I? Thank GOD for Sidra and Tazeen. You guys were God's way of saving my ass. From being the impulsive little weirdo that I am. I was totally nasha -o- fied . Insanity. Love is insanity. And it wasn't even love. Because, would I be getting over it so quickly? (Well, sort of.) It was desperation. Fear of abandonment kicked up like a little mule's legs. Or I was playing the part of an abused, feral kitten who wanted to love and be loved so badly, from the core of my entire being, but scratched and hissed and attacked Imran because he was a male who reminded me of the past pain. His being...

Even if this is all bollocks, I've always gained wise insights from reading them. Smart people, these Taoists :) The good news is I've done my ironing and will study and go for a run and stuff today iA. Now if I could just find my pink pen to write Taz's birthday card. And my organiser so I can organise my week. Argh. Was fun being on the Time to Change website yesterday and contributing my experiences and wisdom to people :) Peace and healing to All and One xx Today's I Ching for Sukaina Juma The present is embodied in Hexagram 44 - Kou (Coming to Meet) : We see a female who is bold and strong. It will not be good to marry such a female. The second line, undivided, shows its subject with a wallet of fish. There will be no error. But it will not be well to let the subject of the first line go forward to the guests. The fourth line, undivided, shows its subject with his wallet, but no fish in it. This will give rise to evil. The situation is shifting,...

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0172396/ I really love that film. I wonder how many times I'll be using this as a blog entry title.... I lasted exactly a month. I'll just take is as Allah's/the Universe's way of saying "look, I don't want you and Imran to waste copious amounts of time in pain and misunderstanding and infatuation, as your mother did and his parents did, especially after you've spent 3 years in hell. Why re-visit it?" Why indeed? I may or may not type up all the (lovely and beautiful) texts he had sent me before last Thursday, just so I have a keepsake before I have to delete them from my phone due to space restraints. My phone stupidly deleted most of my written ones automatically :( So here's the stuff since Monday: I was on Yahoo and he was online and I waited for 10 minutes for him to say hi. He didn't. So I wrote Salaam Imran, hope you're having a good day. That's all. Talk soon, I hope. Sukaina/Suki (word c...