Gagging orders Sidra told me that as for my talent for writing and desire earn money or get a job with my writing because my writing is very heavy... it brings people down. She told me when she sometimes comes across my writing, she doesn't even have to read it: she can feel the energy behind it and it brings her down. Which company will hire someone like that? She asks. So I came home crying... of course, she is no longer hiring me, her dear friend Mish told her to fire me... and of course, I have been thinking this for months... so whatever you put out there comes back. She was nice: she said because there is no stability, I am getting stressed out and have too much time on my hand to think and going around in circles. a 9 -5 job where someone will yell at me is the best way to go... apparently. If love and healing hasn't worked, change it and do something that isn't you... or something you haven't done before. And, so I came home crying and took off the p...