I honestly don't know what part to write about. The stuff on here is so awful. If anyone is reading this, please understand that I was undergoing intense and unknown psychic attack and people were removing all the goodness from my energy on purpose. There were entities inflicting a lot of pain on my mind and soul, and a lot of what I wrote and said was not even genuinely from me. I am an entirely new person. And after 15 long years, I'm finally on a writing course and now have to write something to be workshopped for next week. But I don' t know what to write about. As I hesitantly turned the corner at Hackney Wick station, I realised that I had once again created a fantasy about the sort of experience I was going to have at the Aho Centre. The name itself was enough to bring to my mind a thousand images of the mystical and exotic world of shamans. Although I myself was an energy healer and had experienced a sizeable amount of paranormal experiences, some of which had sca...
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Paulo Coelho says: "I've been in love before, it's like a narcotic. At first it brings the euphoria of complete surrender. The next day you want more. You're not addicted yet, but you like the sensation, and you think you can still control things. You think about the person you love for two minutes then forget them for three hours. But then you get used to that person, and you begin to be completely dependent on them. Now you think about him for three hours and forget him for two minutes. If he's not there, you feel like an addict who can't get a fix. And just as addicts steal and humiliate themselves to get what they need, you're willing to do anything for love." - By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept
Imran had looked at my LinkedIn profile twice in three days. I got curious. Womb healing and serpent energy of medicine wheel is in action. Let go of the past for good. And be grateful. He visited one last time after he read my message at 9pm and, as usual, didn't reply. Definitely not the right man for me, so Allah, make the nurse guy the right person for me please. Or better. Sat Sukaina Juma sent the following message at 8:17 PM Salaam Manu, Are you okay? :) You're beginning to worry me... all okay? 8:17 PM · Sun Imran Lakha sent the following message at 5:15 AM Salaams, weird one indeed. Single dream last week where I was supposed to marry you. God is either being funny or... 5:15 AM Imran Lakha sent the following message at 8:41 AM i should also mention that i don't get these dreams frequently, but i suppose it comes when i ask something from God - it happens in my family. He likes to give me some alternate fact...
Never write emails when half suicidal and brain melting due to sinuses. Wtf is that about devrishes!? Dervishes love being dervishes! Imran's writing had improved. I read a few lines now tired. Saw Naveed and practised indifference. Leslie sucks my energy man. Have to clear now. Salaam Imran, This is technically not a communication. Please NB that. Bold it, highlight it, underline it. I finally understand your boundaries and fully respect them. I'm only emailing you because I really thought you'd want to do one of the courses for free. I'm sure there's something you still don't know. Like the beauty one, your daily skin routine is very important! Being serious, there's some on online marketing, graphic design, blogging etc. You or anyone else you know who'd appreciate a free course. I only just found the link, but you have 20 hours so... still enough time. The free voucher offer expires in 20 hours so be quick. Sha...
My healing is reaching completion... I fantasised for two days and also succumbed to imagining making love to him this morning.... as crazy shit like him leaving his wife and shit like that. fucked. I get the feeling I did some horrible things to the both of them in previous lifetimes... games. Possession. Saving this... Conversation started Sunday 13/07/2014 03:33 Imran Lakha Sa, you poked me twice? What's up? How's fasting going? Sunday 13/07/2014 12:38 Sukaina Juma Salaam.... ummm, I poked you twice because you poked me first? Thought it was a friendly thing to do, seeing as I haven't had time to reply to your email yet What's the etiquette on these things, I never know how humans work these days fasting could be better, I've had to skip half of them due to health. Just can't take the dehydration. Is it possible to become less pious though you're praying t become more saintly? I wonder How's...
So first things first, accept my friend request... Judgement? You kidding right?! That's not sarcasm, that's astonishment.... In fact I'm very calm and love our comvos. Imran Lakha
Sidra's The Awakening has some side effects... but if I had let him go, it wouldn't have mattered at all. I wouldn't have made a big deal of it and had to wait until the PTP in order to respond to him. Fuck. Awareness is key. This is for record for the new Sukaina Juma, she might enjoy reading my posts... might not. God knows why he kept the old email... blah. I deleted all of them last year... as in 2012. I re read the email, such a load of bollocks.... fucked up, I am. He sorted himself out, I didn't. Even the email I sent on Saturday, I now see I could have edited out a LOT of it. Oh well... sucks to be me. I'm leaving this planet. Fucked. ****** Monday 13 January 2014, 11:38 am Salaams Sukaina, How are you? Obviously this is very random of me to email you out of the blue, but thought i'd message you as I wanted to make sure you are still breathing in clean fresh air! Let me know otherwise... ;) How is life? Regards...