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My healing is reaching completion

My healing is reaching completion... I fantasised for two days and also succumbed to imagining making love to him this morning.... as crazy shit like him leaving his wife and shit like that. fucked.


I get the feeling I did some horrible things to the both of them in previous lifetimes... games. Possession.


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  • Conversation started Sunday
  • Imran Lakha
    Imran Lakha
    Sa, you poked me twice? What's up? How's fasting going?
  • Sunday
  • Sukaina Juma
    Sukaina Juma
    Salaam.... ummm, I poked you twice because you poked me first? Thought it was a friendly thing to do, seeing as I haven't had time to reply to your email yet What's the etiquette on these things, I never know how humans work these days
    fasting could be better, I've had to skip half of them due to health. Just can't take the dehydration. Is it possible to become less pious though you're praying t become more saintly? I wonder
    How's it going for you? I don't know how you full time working people do it - must have some special DNA that I forgot to ask for lol
  • Sukaina Juma
    Sukaina Juma
    Hahahaha.... I swear, Facebook is the devil incarnate.... this is what I just read: Imran Lakha poked you 3 times in a row!.... and I'm like...
    Yeah..... SO?
    I really need to get all my stuff off of Facebook. They are selling info, spying and using it for all sorts of nasty ends... and I can't believe it took me so long to take it seriously.
    Actually, I can believe it... I picked the naive, gullible, innocent DNA. lol.
  • Imran Lakha
    Imran Lakha
    Yes my bad. Thought it would be a better way to communicate. Honestly I do Intend to respond.. I find a quiet spot and start hammering away my thoughts, then gets distracted. Immature, I know.... I've heard it. Spare me...
    Fasting is not bad, I'm doing so many other things I don't remember that I am.
    Yes I agree fb are selling your stuff. Honestly you've been using it for a while, so the web is spun. Unless you have another way?
  • Imran Lakha
    Imran Lakha
    Do you use whatsapp?
    Or sms...
  • Sunday
  • Sukaina Juma
    Sukaina Juma
    That's okay, my friend. You have an active and busy life, and now you are a family man - so I understand entirely. You'll respond when you want to. Like I am right now.


  • When we have the motivation to do something, we get things done. I find that writing and then checking off lists help me to focus, because otherwise I lose sight of priorities and get majorly overwhelmed. And forget things like crazy.


  • Nothing wrong about being immature unless it affects your life in some way. Is it even immature to get distracted? I thought you had laser-like focus when you wanted to? Maybe getting distracted is the sign of genius? I like that version. I have many genius friends - they forget to keep in touch, lol
    I'd like to think you are on your way to learning about how to slow down so you can be with yourself and your thoughts - and your soul. Too much activity can sometimes be an alluring distraction from... well.... never mind. Sparing you the lecture my ego wants to burst out with....


  • Glad you're coping better with the fasting than I am. Yay. May they all be accepted.


  • Unless I have another way of what? Using Facebook?


  • Yes, I use both WhatsApp and SMS..... did you want my number?


  • Night... sweet dreams

  • Monday
  • Imran Lakha
    Imran Lakha
    I think its child like to not complete a process from start to finish.

  • Getting distracted like I am now, as I'm supposed to be working..

  • I meant stopping using fb... Fb is distracting even more from doing productive things during your day. But hey, that's my opinion.

  • Yes your mobile number would be good to have, unless you think otherwise
    Is it the hunger or thirst that messes your chi when going about your business?
  • Today
  • Sukaina Juma
    Sukaina Juma
    Lol!!! Hahahaha. Oh bless!
  • Sukaina Juma
    Sukaina Juma
    And... is child like is what? Wrong? Right? Annoying? Not good enough?

    Children actually get work finished. If they are interested in it. Can't believe you're dissing children :p
    Did you ever do the MBTI test? It's because you are most probably an ENTJ that you don't like open ended or unfinished projects or business. It's the J preference.

    Ever using the linear mind to navigate the nebulous nature of the world. Logic only gets you thus far. There are so many things that never get completed, but then perhaps they were only meant to go so far... even God hasn't really finished creating and imagining new things to create.

    Our souls are unfinished pieces of art.

    Finish and send off those emails whenever you want. I'll reply when I can, I still have at least 10 that are pending before yours.

    I have been slowly clearing my addictions, of which Facebook is one. I'm pretty happy with myself, didn't sign in for two entire days.

    A tool is just a tool: how we use it is up to us. Clear the addiction, then it doesn't have a hold over us.

    My number is 07762 984 508. Hopefully I've given you the right number.... my memory, I swear to God!

    The fasting business: I'd think it would be a bit of both, wouldn't you? But because of the amount of energy work I end up doing in a week, I'd say it's the lack of water. And electrolytes. Salt.

    My chi's been low for a long time - better than before - but surprisingly lower than the rest of the population. The energy work is helping massively though. Life saver.

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