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The Ex Effect

Sidra's The Awakening has some side effects... but if I had let him go, it wouldn't have mattered at all.


I wouldn't have made a big deal of it and had to wait until the PTP in order to respond to him.


Fuck. Awareness is key.


This is for record for the new Sukaina Juma, she might enjoy reading my posts... might not.


God knows why he kept the old email... blah.


I deleted all of them last year... as in 2012. I re read the email, such a load of bollocks.... fucked up, I am. He sorted himself out, I didn't.


Even the email I sent on Saturday, I now see I could have edited out a LOT of it. Oh well... sucks to be me.


I'm leaving this planet. Fucked.


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Monday 13 January 2014, 11:38 am


Salaams Sukaina,
 
How are you?  Obviously this is very random of me to email you out of the blue, but thought i'd message you as I wanted to make sure you are still breathing in clean fresh air! Let me know otherwise... ;)
 
How is life?
 
Regards, Imran.


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Saturday 18 January 11:11 pm


Hey Imran,

Salaam.... such a lovely surprise to read your email on Monday! Nothing's really random, though, you know? There is always Divine perfection in apparently random and chaotic events and happenings. Such as my spilling hot cocoa all over myself whilst watching Harry Potter #6 because parts of it scared the pants off me or a bloke trying to hug me for no good reason last week at a workshop, just because we spoke for 5 minutes the day before. Blah.
At first, I was half asleep when I checked my email and thought it was my cousin writing to me under the influence of pain killers and writing me a crazy email like he promised he would. But then you guys spell your names differently.

Then I said, WTF?!?!?! It had me chuckling for a while, I will say. Lol.... looks like we've both grown up a bit - yay!

Well, in answer to your question, I'm still here. I am well today, just came back from yet another of those energy and spiritual workshops I seem to like attending. Perhaps that's what gave me the courage to finally respond, lol.

As for life, I asked it how it was today. It responded that it is as it is. It also said that it goes on. Hope that helps ;)

How's you? From your email, you sound extremely happy and fulfilled. May it always be the case :)

And, more importantly, how are Oliver and Mitthu?

I was actually thinking about them the other day. I have begun to channel healing to animals, so that's why. Except... huh... I perhaps need to fine tune my skills a little more. On New Year's Day, I visited a friend who had a guinea pig called Nibbles and I gave him a healing. He thoroughly enjoyed it, started eating some lettuce.

But then, he died a week later :( Thank goodness she follows Buddhist ideals, she can't be mad at me for too long, right?

With friendship, appreciation and a big smile,
Sukaina





From: Sukaina Juma
To: "ilakha11@yahoo.co.uk"
Sent: Wednesday, 28 November 2012, 11:22
Subject: I couldn't resist... so I didn't :)


Happy 29th birthday Imran!!!! :)))) Hope they get you good cake to eat :)

Sparing a thought and prayer for your brother Gulamabbas and his family, two years and 10 days after he left this earthly incarnation. I have the memory of an elephant, and that's that.

May you be blessed infinitely more and may you allow yourself to receive those blessings... in whichever form they may take.

Sending you lots of Divine Love and Light and a photo of a cute cake I couldn't resist sending (just because I can and it annoys the heck out of you :p)

Sukaina

P.s. Being confidently CAUTIOUS = being PARANOID = irrationally fearing something that doesn't actually exist i.e. an illusion and thus cannot really affect or hurt your true self... so you end up armouring yourself against.... nothing whatsoever. Phantoms...

Just sayin' :)

An alternative way of approaching Life would be to open up and free yourself from the limiting beliefs you've been unconsciously holding onto so tightly :D

And the stuff you end up projecting onto other innocent souls :p

People will get the brilliant gift of connecting with the Real you, instead of getting frustrated with the layers and layers and LAYERS of muck, protection, armour and masks :)

Free yourself, little one ;) Actually, you're an old geezer at 29 :p








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