Isle of Skye

'O Lord, when I lose hope because my plans have come to nothing, then help me to remember that Your love is always greater than my disappointments and Your plans for my life are always better than my dreams.' ~ Imam Ali (a.s.) Have I ever mentioned how much I love Imam Ali (a.s.)? I mean, of course, we all do. His vibration is way too high for those of us with pure hearts and intentions to not love him, or at least carry an admiration and respect for him on some level. That we would understand his calibre. And then there are those who love him much more than I could ever dream possible. But I love him, too. To bits. Lots and lots and lots. In my very unique and powerful way. Every time I'm down, I may not even ask Prophet Muhammad (s.a.w.w.) for help - and that's not due to any other reasons except that I know he's cool with that. My calling on Ali is of course, my calling on Muhammad. Ils sont tous les mêmes. Le même esprit. For me, it's firs...

This deserves a separate post. Of course, there are no accidents. Everything comes at the right time. I was meant to see this photo now, after all that pleading. It made me chuckle :) http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v452/jdcrow/AllahBear.jpg I'm not even bothering to find out anything about the motivations behind this bear. All I know is, Allah is in the house. And I am safe. And I am loved. And I am protected. And I am guided? Perhaps.

One can hope. And one can once again ask Allah: please stop bringing stupid-head people and situations in my life. I hate their judgement, their empty words and their assumptions about me. Why are they being so blind? Do I really treat other people like that? Of course. And I am sorry. I don't know why I still do it. I'm trying so very, very hard. So hard, I am. So hard. And I can tell, because I am getting annoyed by my own self once again, that I must really be stepping on the toes of other people. I don't want to do that. I only reach out because I see it as connecting. And behaving opposite to my regular behaviour patterns of hiding away like a hurt turtle. And I'm so lonely and I need more real-life people in my life. Sane people. feather dusters. I'm so tired of all the people who are lessons and lessons and lessons..... why are there no enjoyable lessons? I may have angels and spirit guides around me, but can I see them? Can I sense th...

Dear Adele, May you be blessed with inspiration, creativity, music, that voice... and may I be able to tap into all of those talents and make them my own. If you can do it, I can bloody well do it in my own way as well. Thanks and best of luck x I have been playing this song constantly today. My only anchor. A great way to channel my unbridled passions, anger, frustration, yearnings, frustration and exasperation and general fed upness with people and life. And I'm trying to get rid of the last lingering thoughts of him - why on earth won't they DIE already? 11 months after the catastrophic day he messaged me on 23rd August and still... Gabriele started "liking" my cat display pics and... it reminded me of when Imran would click "Like" to things I posted, my status, my photos. Which I then deleted and reposted again, so I didn't have a trace of him left. He frigging annoyed me so much I only went and did all that crazy stuff. And after all o...

https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjXzmTeWJLOJnL4aav0XDTNtj5VdbG6kuSoQpqKaFaTdAMz2KWzRxLkRW3hCpWmaPf0chgFWFDkZKdsvLAyWnrMK-_s0f6lUlVf6eaTRDq0KXRQsYjb8MrL5VkI594I4wRhGiEKMzRgS78/s400/youdon%2527tknowme..jpg Can everybody in the entire multiverse take a minute to understand what I mean when I say or do something? The true authentic energy is behind all my emails and words. Stop misunderstanding me and assuming things about me. And projecting onto me. And doing it so regularly that it truly makes me wonder why on Earth we bother with one another. I mean, one of my closest friends misunderstands me on such a regular basis, I truly, truly, truly wonder... why would I attract these misunderstandings? Why? Why does she still see me as weak, stupid, childish, naive and blind and ignorant? Why does she assume things about me? Why does she honestly still believe I am that same shit-head I was all those years I couldn't get out of the overwhelm of all those...

The lover and companion and soulmate cards I draw just make me laugh now. Muhahahaha! Having said that, I know that this will happen for me when I am ready for something that I or he won't sunbconsciouolsy sabotage because we both behaved like dumbasses. I'm done with that pattern. Très cliché. Doesn't look like it's happening tomorrow, at least. Pity. In other news, why do people have to be so mean? And both people who were really not good to someone who might have either been a prospective client or would have referred them were life coaches. Well, if they either send me cold replies to my friendly emails or don't bother responding to one I sent when really down and lost - honestly, they are no good for me. I supportive "Oh I am so sorry to hear this" would have been nice. I obviously triggered major stuff in their energy fields and egos. Once I can pinpoint it, I can then figure how to release the sore spots that got me triggered off as aresult o...

Okay, so even though I allowed a temporary lower vibration get the better of me yesterday, I'm writing down all the high points of last week. 14 June - Saturday: Surprise rock climbing adventure for my last life coaching course with Liz Foster. I went up four times and reached the top three times. On a challenging slab, I apparently made a "very technical move" according to the instructor. I really enjoyed it because it was an achievable goal, I am very good at it, something I have been wanting to do and something NEW for the month of June. It didn't even occur to me to feel afraid or give up. (I feel "normal"). I even grazed my knee (sports injury - w00t!) Tuesday: Kept my appointment with the lady at Wimbledon Guild. She seemed very impressed with my CV and took me on. It was actually easy. I offered to volunteer for the Wimbledon Village Fair that Saturday. Seemed really appreciative, showed me around and then kept saying I am a whizz at admin and pow...