The lover and companion and soulmate cards I draw just make me laugh now. Muhahahaha!
Having said that, I know that this will happen for me when I am ready for something that I or he won't sunbconsciouolsy sabotage because we both behaved like dumbasses. I'm done with that pattern. Très cliché.
Doesn't look like it's happening tomorrow, at least. Pity.
In other news, why do people have to be so mean? And both people who were really not good to someone who might have either been a prospective client or would have referred them were life coaches. Well, if they either send me cold replies to my friendly emails or don't bother responding to one I sent when really down and lost - honestly, they are no good for me. I supportive "Oh I am so sorry to hear this" would have been nice. I obviously triggered major stuff in their energy fields and egos. Once I can pinpoint it, I can then figure how to release the sore spots that got me triggered off as aresult of what I label as unkind behaviour.
Farhat Aunty was wrong and not the first time, either.
I couldn't even write Liz Foster a testimonial. She's nice, I learned some valuable things and yet - no testimonial. I wouldn't recommend the course. Not in the way I would recommend Sidra and Art Giser. It didn't work for me in that way.
I need people with true empathy and compassion. Because I'm an ickle thing whose feelings get hurt very easily indeed.
Whatever, I'm just a grumpy face today because I'm finding it challenging to deal with different sorts of people and temperaments.
Dear God, all that I plan for tomorrow, make it easy for me to accomplish or better.
The things I hope for this entire week, bless them or guide me to better things.
And as for that thing I really would like to happen next week as magically as the first time, please bless it for the sake of turbat-eHussain or replace it with something that is much better for me.
And allow me to really love and accpet myself in entirety. Especially when I am censured and rejected and ridiculed and ignored by so many other people who just cannot be nice, cannot understand or cannot be happy for me.
If I'm happy and bubbly and excited, I hope I'm not adding to their heaviness.
So, yes, gently lead me away from treading on anyone's toes or for just hurting anyone or triggering them off. And Soften my words and let me only speak that which needs to be said in the best of manners.
Let me let go fo ALL of my great expectations, trust, accept and allow You to guide me through the myriad visible and invisible means of support.
Lots of love, my dearest and first and only Allah
P.S.
Thank you for choosing to be my Lord. I can't even begin to think how much You are caring for me and protecting and guiding me right now.
You love me.
The entire world can have their moods and turn their backs on me, call me a heretic or just a loony. Or a massive waste of space and lazy ass.
And You will always love me with great intensity and ferocity.
Make me grand and beautiful enough to love you with a depth that Ali ibn Abi Taleb loves you...
Having said that, I know that this will happen for me when I am ready for something that I or he won't sunbconsciouolsy sabotage because we both behaved like dumbasses. I'm done with that pattern. Très cliché.
Doesn't look like it's happening tomorrow, at least. Pity.
In other news, why do people have to be so mean? And both people who were really not good to someone who might have either been a prospective client or would have referred them were life coaches. Well, if they either send me cold replies to my friendly emails or don't bother responding to one I sent when really down and lost - honestly, they are no good for me. I supportive "Oh I am so sorry to hear this" would have been nice. I obviously triggered major stuff in their energy fields and egos. Once I can pinpoint it, I can then figure how to release the sore spots that got me triggered off as aresult of what I label as unkind behaviour.
Farhat Aunty was wrong and not the first time, either.
I couldn't even write Liz Foster a testimonial. She's nice, I learned some valuable things and yet - no testimonial. I wouldn't recommend the course. Not in the way I would recommend Sidra and Art Giser. It didn't work for me in that way.
I need people with true empathy and compassion. Because I'm an ickle thing whose feelings get hurt very easily indeed.
Whatever, I'm just a grumpy face today because I'm finding it challenging to deal with different sorts of people and temperaments.
Dear God, all that I plan for tomorrow, make it easy for me to accomplish or better.
The things I hope for this entire week, bless them or guide me to better things.
And as for that thing I really would like to happen next week as magically as the first time, please bless it for the sake of turbat-eHussain or replace it with something that is much better for me.
And allow me to really love and accpet myself in entirety. Especially when I am censured and rejected and ridiculed and ignored by so many other people who just cannot be nice, cannot understand or cannot be happy for me.
If I'm happy and bubbly and excited, I hope I'm not adding to their heaviness.
So, yes, gently lead me away from treading on anyone's toes or for just hurting anyone or triggering them off. And Soften my words and let me only speak that which needs to be said in the best of manners.
Let me let go fo ALL of my great expectations, trust, accept and allow You to guide me through the myriad visible and invisible means of support.
Lots of love, my dearest and first and only Allah
P.S.
Thank you for choosing to be my Lord. I can't even begin to think how much You are caring for me and protecting and guiding me right now.
You love me.
The entire world can have their moods and turn their backs on me, call me a heretic or just a loony. Or a massive waste of space and lazy ass.
And You will always love me with great intensity and ferocity.
Make me grand and beautiful enough to love you with a depth that Ali ibn Abi Taleb loves you...
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