Dear Adele,
May you be blessed with inspiration, creativity, music, that voice... and may I be able to tap into all of those talents and make them my own. If you can do it, I can bloody well do it in my own way as well.
Thanks and best of luck x
I have been playing this song constantly today. My only anchor.
A great way to channel my unbridled passions, anger, frustration, yearnings, frustration and exasperation and general fed upness with people and life.
And I'm trying to get rid of the last lingering thoughts of him - why on earth won't they DIE already? 11 months after the catastrophic day he messaged me on 23rd August and still...
Gabriele started "liking" my cat display pics and... it reminded me of when Imran would click "Like" to things I posted, my status, my photos. Which I then deleted and reposted again, so I didn't have a trace of him left. He frigging annoyed me so much I only went and did all that crazy stuff.
And after all of that, and after I know what is yet to come when I start my next (and let's hope it's of the functional, reciprocal and long-lasting variety) romantic liaison, I still want to be with a man.And still don't understand why it's so impossible for me, and why I've chosen this life path. That I'm twenty-seven and can't even attract anybody, let alone start up anything.
And every other day someone or other is getting married and it's really odd. If they can do it, why am I choosing not to? No job, no career, no friends who live in the same city who bother with me, no proper family relations, no pets, yada yada yada. I mean, my computer and the wireless connection is acting up - AGAIN. So I'm using his bloody computer. And then my shehla got caught on my necklace and I'm like "Why, God? The big things: finances, relationships, partnerships, friendships, career, contacts, travelling, peace of mind, quality of life, life goals and life path - I get it. But You can't even let my scarves remain unscathed? What do you get out of all of this?"
I am lit up again.
P.S. Allah, show me a way to release all those vibrations and resonances which make other people think I give a rat's ass about what they think about me, or what they think my future is going to be, or that I really would benefit from their advice and their opinions. That they somehow know a lot more about me and my life than I do. And even if they do through the unfair means of having intuitive gifts, they still don't know everything.
Someone, again, telling me that she thinks I'm going to remain single all my life. And then she says something annoyingly fatalistic and judgemental and absolute BS like: It is already written.
People, shut the hell UP!
I am creating the life of my dreams and so you can keep your low vibrations and moroseness and subconscious glee over my being humiliated and falling splat on my back and breaking my spine so I can never get up again..... keep them the HELL OUT OF MY FACE AND MY ENTIRE ENERGY FIELD.
Wish people would just shut up. Wish I didn't have such dumbasses in my life. Where are all the intelligent, kind and genuine people? Argh... and I have only four loving and supportive energies in my life. And I have to hear that from someone else. Because I'm too dumb to figure it out myself...
P.P.S. As I have said, I am extremely lit up.
I just read the lyrics. They touched me in my heart, and I shed a few tears. The entire metaphoric imagery is pretty mesmerising. The thing with Adele's music is that she reveals such passion and bares the ultimate core of her heart. And music like that ~ paired with that fabulously glorious voice ~ sets fire to my entire being. The funny thing, of course, is how all this alchemic soul music is inspired by immature and so-not-worth-it London men/boys!
"Set Fire To The Rain"
I let it fall, my heart,
And as it fell, you rose to claim it
It was dark and I was over
Until you kissed my lips and you saved me
My hands, they're strong
But my knees were far too weak
To stand in your arms
Without falling to your feet
But there's a side to you
That I never knew, never knew.
All the things you'd say
They were never true, never true,
And the games you play
You would always win, always win.
[Chorus:]
But I set fire to the rain,
Watched it pour as I touched your face,
Well, it burned while I cried
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name!
When I lay with you
I could stay there
Close my eyes
Feel you're here forever
You and me together
Nothing gets better
'Cause there's a side to you
That I never knew, never knew,
All the things you'd say,
They were never true, never true,
And the games you play
You would always win, always win.
[Chorus:]
But I set fire to the rain,
Watched it pour as I touched your face,
Well, it burned while I cried
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name!
I set fire to the rain
And I threw us into the flames
Well, it felt something died
'Cause I knew that that was the last time, the last time!
Sometimes I wake up by the door,
That heart you caught, must be waiting for you
Even now when we're already over
I can't help myself from looking for you.
[Chorus:]
I set fire to the rain,
Watch it pour as I touch your face,
Well, it burned while I cried
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name
I set fire to the rain,
And I threw us into the flames
Well, it felt something died
'Cause I knew that that was the last time
The last time, oh, oh!
Let it burn
Let it burn
Let it burn
May you be blessed with inspiration, creativity, music, that voice... and may I be able to tap into all of those talents and make them my own. If you can do it, I can bloody well do it in my own way as well.
Thanks and best of luck x
I have been playing this song constantly today. My only anchor.
A great way to channel my unbridled passions, anger, frustration, yearnings, frustration and exasperation and general fed upness with people and life.
And I'm trying to get rid of the last lingering thoughts of him - why on earth won't they DIE already? 11 months after the catastrophic day he messaged me on 23rd August and still...
Gabriele started "liking" my cat display pics and... it reminded me of when Imran would click "Like" to things I posted, my status, my photos. Which I then deleted and reposted again, so I didn't have a trace of him left. He frigging annoyed me so much I only went and did all that crazy stuff.
And after all of that, and after I know what is yet to come when I start my next (and let's hope it's of the functional, reciprocal and long-lasting variety) romantic liaison, I still want to be with a man.And still don't understand why it's so impossible for me, and why I've chosen this life path. That I'm twenty-seven and can't even attract anybody, let alone start up anything.
And every other day someone or other is getting married and it's really odd. If they can do it, why am I choosing not to? No job, no career, no friends who live in the same city who bother with me, no proper family relations, no pets, yada yada yada. I mean, my computer and the wireless connection is acting up - AGAIN. So I'm using his bloody computer. And then my shehla got caught on my necklace and I'm like "Why, God? The big things: finances, relationships, partnerships, friendships, career, contacts, travelling, peace of mind, quality of life, life goals and life path - I get it. But You can't even let my scarves remain unscathed? What do you get out of all of this?"
I am lit up again.
P.S. Allah, show me a way to release all those vibrations and resonances which make other people think I give a rat's ass about what they think about me, or what they think my future is going to be, or that I really would benefit from their advice and their opinions. That they somehow know a lot more about me and my life than I do. And even if they do through the unfair means of having intuitive gifts, they still don't know everything.
Someone, again, telling me that she thinks I'm going to remain single all my life. And then she says something annoyingly fatalistic and judgemental and absolute BS like: It is already written.
People, shut the hell UP!
I am creating the life of my dreams and so you can keep your low vibrations and moroseness and subconscious glee over my being humiliated and falling splat on my back and breaking my spine so I can never get up again..... keep them the HELL OUT OF MY FACE AND MY ENTIRE ENERGY FIELD.
Wish people would just shut up. Wish I didn't have such dumbasses in my life. Where are all the intelligent, kind and genuine people? Argh... and I have only four loving and supportive energies in my life. And I have to hear that from someone else. Because I'm too dumb to figure it out myself...
P.P.S. As I have said, I am extremely lit up.
I just read the lyrics. They touched me in my heart, and I shed a few tears. The entire metaphoric imagery is pretty mesmerising. The thing with Adele's music is that she reveals such passion and bares the ultimate core of her heart. And music like that ~ paired with that fabulously glorious voice ~ sets fire to my entire being. The funny thing, of course, is how all this alchemic soul music is inspired by immature and so-not-worth-it London men/boys!
"Set Fire To The Rain"
I let it fall, my heart,
And as it fell, you rose to claim it
It was dark and I was over
Until you kissed my lips and you saved me
My hands, they're strong
But my knees were far too weak
To stand in your arms
Without falling to your feet
But there's a side to you
That I never knew, never knew.
All the things you'd say
They were never true, never true,
And the games you play
You would always win, always win.
[Chorus:]
But I set fire to the rain,
Watched it pour as I touched your face,
Well, it burned while I cried
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name!
When I lay with you
I could stay there
Close my eyes
Feel you're here forever
You and me together
Nothing gets better
'Cause there's a side to you
That I never knew, never knew,
All the things you'd say,
They were never true, never true,
And the games you play
You would always win, always win.
[Chorus:]
But I set fire to the rain,
Watched it pour as I touched your face,
Well, it burned while I cried
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name!
I set fire to the rain
And I threw us into the flames
Well, it felt something died
'Cause I knew that that was the last time, the last time!
Sometimes I wake up by the door,
That heart you caught, must be waiting for you
Even now when we're already over
I can't help myself from looking for you.
[Chorus:]
I set fire to the rain,
Watch it pour as I touch your face,
Well, it burned while I cried
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name
I set fire to the rain,
And I threw us into the flames
Well, it felt something died
'Cause I knew that that was the last time
The last time, oh, oh!
Let it burn
Let it burn
Let it burn
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