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Madness. Mess. Meh . Men. Correction: male species. It takes a lot for me to call someone a man. The Prophet was a man, Imam Ali was a man, Imam Mahdi is a man, Agha Khoei was a man. Me not fulfilling my capabilities. My purpose. They are banging my head over and over with the signs and it's me who has to say to myself.. hello, knock knock, is it getting through? And I feel stuck... so release the feeling. You know now that these emotions and feelings aren't static. I went on the SimplyShia website out of fear. Sameera told me to start looking now because of her own sad experiences. So, stupid Suki did. Now if that's not tempting fate, I haven't a clue what is. Oh, btw , Irish's (that's how he will be for me forever now, I'd call him Arrogant, Weird-Ass Prick, but Irish is a nicer touch, so much more genteel) cousin died on Eid ul Adha , 18 th November 2010, Thursday night. 26 year old dies of a heart attack. Unfathomable. So he emailed me about it y...

If I'm to go by what this lady says, ha! I have seriously deluded myself.... and I have been extremely unfair to Imran Lakha. By sending him that longest-assed email in existence. Well, I hope I rubbed his Ego nice and proper - oh wow, yet another stalker, person who adores me. Auto-reaction: Mehhhh...... IGNORE! Eyes meeting, instant connection? Ha! Sukaina Chicken Guts cannot get up la courage to meet him. Unless, as has already been run in her mind vividly, she meets him randomly at the mosque one day.... looking towards a specific date, 28th November 2010 when I'm to be in Stanmore for the 40th of my dad's chachi and somehow, he finds himself at the mosque on his birthday.... ha, Sukaina, DELUDED SOME? YES! I couldn't even go to meet him - you're supposed to have la confiance and just go boom with a Soul mate, aren't you?... well, actually, I was. I was going to meet him last weekend. But he DUMPED me on 19th October, didn't he now? ...

How can they be so damned talented? How? How? How? How? How? Comment ?! I had to listen to this three times before I realised it was about AIDS. "Nothing Left To Do" Una mirada Ojos que matan De rodillas en tentacion Una palabra y no puede darle el no Una noche y su alma quiebra con Tremenda fuerza Y quien puede reprocharle Conosco ese momento de flojedad Veneno tierno que siembra la ansiedad Cada día tan confuso Sus demonios fuertes intrusos Cada noche su alma apuesta [Translation] One look Eyes that could kill Brought to his knees by temptation One word and he can't say no One night and his soul is being torn With tremendous force And who can blame him I recognize this moment of weakness Fresh poison cultivates the anxiety Each day so confusing His demons closing in on him Each night his soul is at stake Warm smile - long blond hair Pretty green eyes and skin damned fair For sure lucky to get with a girl like that Couldn't pa...

My Messages On Fri, Nov 19, 2010 at 12:11 PM from - raza1 was going though your profile its like a book lol but interesting topics to talk about As for Mr Lakha? manu1001 26 Ja'fari/Ithna'asheri Middlesex,GB My friends would describe me as Easygoing, Enthusiastic, Intelligent, Reflective, Spontaneous hmmm..... What would you like to know? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V1bFr2SWP1I Last active : 4 Hours ago And... Imran Lakha Today is a terrible day... 2 hours ago · Like Unlike · Comment . And what does this idiot go and do? In spite of horoscope saying to ignore him? I send him an offline which said: Having a terrible day? Am Reiki-ing it better.... J'SUIS UNE IDIOTE! Horoscope also says to not be emotionally insensitive to romantic possibilities. Which means I will be replying to lafunga Raza (love the name, always have) - has ...

I feel so vengeful. I feel like putting my profile on the SimplyShia website and activating it and making every single fucking male's life miserable. manu1001 26 Ja'fari/Ithna'asheri Middlesex,GB My friends would describe me as Chilled, Enthusiastic, Intelligent, Reflective, Spontaneous hmmm..... What would you like to know? Last active : 7 Hours ago And he has frigging 5 stars? How on Earth does he get 5 stars? I've only got 3 and my profile is COMPLETE! Revenge is on my mind. It's hopeless. The stupid numerology is useless. The stupid horoscopes are useless. I am absolutely useless. At least I showered today.

Ha! Typical! From: Tazeen Mohsin To: Sukaina Juma Sent: Sat, 18 September, 2010 18:19:37 Subject: This email interests you more :P "Ok here goes what I meant by slowing down: I'm really happy for the fact that you are experiencing all these wonderful feelings and even being Bridget Jones and the best thing is that he really is into you! Feel free to discard whatever doesn't make sense. Draw up a few boundaries, from your side and his. While its good to be talking about your feelings, letting him know how you feel about him, take time to develop that trust level especially with such intimate feelings. Let him earn your respect and honesty and to a degree even sacrifice. Rather than aiming for a partnership and thinking why and why not, concentrate on being friends and if things start to open up, you would know where they are heading. You talked about emptiness. That part just concerned me. You just sound like my own story. If you enter a relationship feeling ...

And when you're expressing your highest self, you will ... something, something..... http://store.debbieford.com/index.php?cPath=14_20#meditations I've just finished listening to the one about Unmasking Self Sabotage. I don't want to journal it: just want to share it with my peeps. That's you lot :) Fear of the unknown. Attaching myself to the depression. Shaking off parts of myself in order to "please" people, mainly Imran, but also my good friends. Clingy behaviour. Desperation for love. Allowing my hatred for my father explode and so harming my own physical safety and security. Being stubborn and not yielding... Falling in love....and then finally getting up the cojones to tell the object of my desire that I desire him. And never stopped since he sent me the duck photo.... *big grin* Ahhh..... therefore making him run far, far away.......... again. It can't work. It can't. Can it? Now off to the corner shop to get me another...