Ha! Typical!
From: Tazeen Mohsin
To: Sukaina Juma
Sent: Sat, 18 September, 2010 18:19:37
Subject: This email interests you more :P
"Ok here goes what I meant by slowing down: I'm really happy for the fact that you are experiencing all these wonderful feelings and even being Bridget Jones and the best thing is that he really is into you! Feel free to discard whatever doesn't make sense. Draw up a few boundaries, from your side and his. While its good to be talking about your feelings, letting him know how you feel about him, take time to develop that trust level especially with such intimate feelings. Let him earn your respect and honesty and to a degree even sacrifice. Rather than aiming for a partnership and thinking why and why not, concentrate on being friends and if things start to open up, you would know where they are heading.
You talked about emptiness. That part just concerned me. You just sound like my own story. If you enter a relationship feeling empty, you'll still end up feeling empty while in it. Make him the center of your world but make sure he is not your world
Focus on loving him for him, not what he can do for you (thats very hard! I'm still struggling too!)
You deserve it Suki. Just spread this thing over a time rather than few days."
Well, guess what this stupid idiot wrote to him - everything!
So long, Mr. Imran Lakha. It was nice knowing ya! Good luck with your search for "the one". She's certainly not going to be a nutter like myself.
Fucking depression and mental health issues. And my swearing.
Just gonna nick someone's cat now. Bohot ho gaya.
Drama baazi - main ne shuruh kiya, main ne. Aur dekho result. He didn't ask for my entire life history, did he? He's just a normal, fun loving boy.
Oh well.
I'm going to type this card out, it's what I picked up today (so much for doing any work or assignments - not even going to go to the mosque tomorrow - feeling so low and depressed... cry, Sukaina, why don't you? Aur kuch aata toh hai nahi)
"I must be better than I thought I was"
How many times a day do you belittle yourself?
All through your life you unconsciously and consciously search for the love that you feel you are lacking. You search for the love that you think will make you complete. Yet you are already complete - only you do not realise.
How can another person complete you? They too are the same as you. They too unconsciously search for completion. How could they give any part of their self to you? It is impossible. They can share all the love they have, but even that is not the unconditional love your soul is searching for. They are human and prone to make mistakes. Leaning too heavily on another is a weight that is impossible to carry - for any mortal being.
Just for today, allow yourself to be connected to the universal love at its source. Recognise where you belong. Recognise that the love you have needed was inside you and with you all along. How could it ever not be when you are connected to the source that is God?
~~~
And that is that.
I am shaking all of this off.... shrugging my shoulders.
I was unfair to you, Imran. Sorry. Have a good Eid and a good rest of the year and a good life.
I'm through.
I have to start accepting and liking myself for who I am. I am intense. I am impulsive. And I scare people off.
Relationship - with a male? BAH. HUMBUG.
From: Tazeen Mohsin
To: Sukaina Juma
Sent: Sat, 18 September, 2010 18:19:37
Subject: This email interests you more :P
"Ok here goes what I meant by slowing down: I'm really happy for the fact that you are experiencing all these wonderful feelings and even being Bridget Jones and the best thing is that he really is into you! Feel free to discard whatever doesn't make sense. Draw up a few boundaries, from your side and his. While its good to be talking about your feelings, letting him know how you feel about him, take time to develop that trust level especially with such intimate feelings. Let him earn your respect and honesty and to a degree even sacrifice. Rather than aiming for a partnership and thinking why and why not, concentrate on being friends and if things start to open up, you would know where they are heading.
You talked about emptiness. That part just concerned me. You just sound like my own story. If you enter a relationship feeling empty, you'll still end up feeling empty while in it. Make him the center of your world but make sure he is not your world
Focus on loving him for him, not what he can do for you (thats very hard! I'm still struggling too!)You deserve it Suki. Just spread this thing over a time rather than few days."
Well, guess what this stupid idiot wrote to him - everything!
So long, Mr. Imran Lakha. It was nice knowing ya! Good luck with your search for "the one". She's certainly not going to be a nutter like myself.
Fucking depression and mental health issues. And my swearing.
Just gonna nick someone's cat now. Bohot ho gaya.
Drama baazi - main ne shuruh kiya, main ne. Aur dekho result. He didn't ask for my entire life history, did he? He's just a normal, fun loving boy.
Oh well.
I'm going to type this card out, it's what I picked up today (so much for doing any work or assignments - not even going to go to the mosque tomorrow - feeling so low and depressed... cry, Sukaina, why don't you? Aur kuch aata toh hai nahi)
"I must be better than I thought I was"
How many times a day do you belittle yourself?
All through your life you unconsciously and consciously search for the love that you feel you are lacking. You search for the love that you think will make you complete. Yet you are already complete - only you do not realise.
How can another person complete you? They too are the same as you. They too unconsciously search for completion. How could they give any part of their self to you? It is impossible. They can share all the love they have, but even that is not the unconditional love your soul is searching for. They are human and prone to make mistakes. Leaning too heavily on another is a weight that is impossible to carry - for any mortal being.
Just for today, allow yourself to be connected to the universal love at its source. Recognise where you belong. Recognise that the love you have needed was inside you and with you all along. How could it ever not be when you are connected to the source that is God?
~~~
And that is that.
I am shaking all of this off.... shrugging my shoulders.
I was unfair to you, Imran. Sorry. Have a good Eid and a good rest of the year and a good life.
I'm through.
I have to start accepting and liking myself for who I am. I am intense. I am impulsive. And I scare people off.
Relationship - with a male? BAH. HUMBUG.
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