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Les fleurs, la carte et le teddy

Bonne anniversaire à moi!

Madiha Muffin.

I still have no words.

I shall not be able to forget this day, even if I try really hard.

What was going to be an extremely crappy day, you managed to turn it a complete 180 degrees into one of the best days. Who cares if I am alone today? You've shown me how generous YOU are and how much YOU care about me.

My life is a movie today. I usually try to downplay how much I like being made a fuss off on my birthday.

I'm such a sap! But the gesture is so... j'ai pas de mots.

Mes belles fleurs

And yesterday, my friend Saima gave me the Darren Hayes "Spin" CD, chocolates, cupcakes and her mum made me mince pasties and we had crisps and... sigh (even  when I told her we would defer the present-giving until I found something I wanted). She tried to cheer me up. She took time out of her busy life schedule, even though she was really tired, she didn't cancel and she ignored my gloominess (I was more Eeyore than Piglet yesterday) and she made me laugh.

My neighbour Lynda had already given me my birthday card on 1st April, along with tickets for the Mind Body Spirit festival next month. My khala had already sent me my card and birthday money with a relative, I just need to collect it.

Emails. E-cards. Texts. Phone calls.

And Allah gave me His gift in the form of a cute kitty who greeted me this morning on the way to my temp job for the day. She let me stroke her for a good 5 minutes and was very friendly. Only after that was I able to genuinely smile and feel positively about my day.



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Thank you Allah for all the people in my life who love me and who remembered me today, on my birthday. Who remember when it is.

Bless every single one of them. 

They are the reasons I am saying Alhamdulillah today.

You have sent them to me as messengers that You haven't abandoned me.

That there is still love, hope and abundance in my life.

That there are many, many reasons for me to show You gratitude.

That, at least, some parts of my life are prosperous.

That I have friends, their love, affection and acceptance.

Friends like the ones in the movies and novels and TV programmes.

Wow.

I promise myself that by my 28th birthday, I will have a lot more of my shit together.


Your fortune cookie reads: Those who have love, have wealth beyond measure. 

Your fortune cookie reads: Count your blessings by thinking of those whom you love.
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