Lunar
Eclipses are like a Full Moon on steroids so can be a very emotional
time particularly relating to closure and letting go. This one is in
Scorpio, renowned for plunging into the darkest depths of the emotional
pool so many of you may be experiencing a releasing of very old feelings
this week. There is something very 'Twilight Zone' happening lately
with timelines and parallel realities, so something else that's
happening is the grieving of parallel realities that could have been but
weren't (in this reality). You might be having dreams or thinking about
people from the past, or experiencing a sense of loss for the life that
didn't happen. Just like the high tide at full moon, these emotions or
memories are like water that rushes up, then goes back into the ocean.
They may also be manifesting as physical symptoms around the chest or
sinus area. If these physical symptoms persist it can mean you are
holding onto something that it is time to let go of or address in some
way. Allow whatever is coming up at this time to flow. Some of you may
just need to feel it, otherwise activities like journaling, meditating
or painting can help you understand what's coming up in a clearer way.
Two
Friday, Apr 26th, 2013
You're fine tuned and sensitive
today, reading other people easily and clearly. You may play the part of
the peacemaker today, and others may perceive you as being a bit
self-righteous. Try not to annoy others with the force of your
convictions.
- 18 April
-
Sukaina Juma
Yeah,
that EFT statement might be very profound for you to be at peace. I
used a similar one after I was seen as not the right one.
Dear
(Sky?)... I am aware that I am bored. I am not going to act upon
anything. For various reasons. The most important being I am aware he is
not my soul mate. I see a lot of myself in him, so I sympathise with
him. That's it - now I am aware.
I only speak with such awareness
because I have been made aware by various means that in previous lives, I
have misused my charm and beauty and hurt people. I have a karmic
number of 16. And someone told me I have a promiscuous energy... in this
lifetime, I am technically a virgin - I haven't had a single proper
relationship and I do not come onto men. I feel it's not needed - if
they are interested, they can come to me.
Most of my experiences
have been karmic - which is great, since the veils of forgetfulness and
separation are many in my case - I don't remember. And would rather not,
because it makes me sad that I have caused such chaos. And still
balancing the karma.
This is why I pray I can open up to being
with the right man for me - so that I stop directing all my desires onto
someone else. There's no point.
In the meantime, I try to
sublimate it. But I am very different now to a few months ago. I am
still trying to catch up with myself.
I just wanted to clarify
that I am actually really careful about my sexual energy. It took ages
for me to accept my sexual desires... I want to be with the right man
for me for all the right reasons. I want marriage... I want a home.
So when I confuse myself... I get sad that I confuse myself. It's not difficult. Yet it seems to be.
Anyway... love you xx
-
Sky IndigoStarseed Wanderer
OMG,
i have the same thing lol. I wouldn't call it charm and beauty, because
it's not from a place of beauty or charm we came from, but
manipulation, and that is ugly energy, it's more the fact that we
approached and used vulnerable, susceptible people who were weak to say
no, believe me, my lesson in this life time i have learned is, if they
give in, and get used it's not because we were excessively charming,
it's because they didn't know how to say no, or didn't believe they had
the right to.
That's what i discovered this morning after
meditation. Was that, the main reason all of this relationship stuff
happened, was nothing to do with her, and everything to do with me. My
pattern with relationships and how i relate to women. I grew up in an
environment where if a man said No to a women who claims to want him,
there must be something wrong with him, or he's gay. For a man to have
standards, or to care about how he is treated was unknown, for a man to
say no to sex or relations with any woman who wanted him was strange,
and i'd never seen example of it, thus, i don't know how to say ''No''
to women!!! SO, I always get/god manipulated by women easily and could
only relate to women who want to manipulate.Those women who wanted
nothing from me, i looked past them, and those who wanted ME just for
ME, I didn't notice, because they weren't in my awareness asking me for
something, or requesting my attention for any selfish reason. Because
those women give me space, I saw the space and not them. I could up
until now, only notice women who get / got in my face with some form of
opposition or negotiation of exchange in energy. Those who respected me
as an individual with rights, I did not see!!! Validating the reality,
that I will always give to women, say yes to women... making me a ''real
man'' . Since i do play the male role in the world as opposite to
female this lifetime altho in a female body... this was where i thought i
should be.
Didn't clear it completely, but worked on ways i cud
say ''no'' to women without feeling sympathy for them and giving in. But
there's something i'm not seeing. I'm going to ask.
Anyway, I
also had karma in past lives as a leader, having female slaves etc,i've
been a complete womanizer as a warrior also, using females for sex etc, u
know back in those days...typical man of power , money, and status.
Which is why i have such issues with it in this life time, and rebel
against being in that position for fear of living it out again. And i
have major issues with misuse of sexuality, especially from men to
women, but now seeing it from women to men too. But believe me, its not
to accredit out charm and beauty, it's not charming or beautiful to
manipulate, it's not that they're so attracted to us they can't say no,
the power's not ours... it's their weakness to anyone, to humanity, or
anyone willing to manipulate them, and that they want to be manipulated
that makes them give in.We couldn't have manipulated anyone if they
didn't want that experience.
So really, the karma we clear is allowing it.
all experience are karmic, karma is what allows us to be here.
You've
caused nothing. You've only been reacting to the karma you were given
to learn from, to other stimuli, and been acting out the role we all
agreed you would to serve us ALL in growing and expanding. Why do you
blame yourself? Furthermore, how big and important do you feel you are
that you could cause any chaos that the creator did not want for you to
carry out on his behalf? Without his permission, you'd have done nothing
. Accept that missy!
How
old are you? I forget. Strange for someone like me from Harlem, new
york city to meet any adult who is technically a virgin or a virgin in
any form. Lol
No , it's not difficult. But you want it to be.
it doesn't make you sad, you choose to feel sad, because you enjoy sadness. It's okay... i do the same.
-
Sukaina Juma
I'm 29 years old - no judgement
What
you say makes sense. Thanks for clarifying... manipulation - we all do
it. And yes, everything was done in the sphere... if creator didn't want
it, it would have been different.
Yes, yes I choose difficult and sad
So.. you're from Harlem? How old are you... then? You're younger than me for sure, I know ... biologically, haha
-
Sky IndigoStarseed Wanderer
Well, yeah my body's 23 years old, 24 this july
Did they pronounce star of Awakening?
Should have been me, but since i wasn't there, they might have said next person down...
I'll tell you a secret after soull all retreat winner has been announced
Now I'm not on the course, I can the course, I can tell All the Secrets sidra asked me to keep from you guys
That's why i have no secrets, if there's something i wouldn't want EVERYONE to know... I'll tell NO-ONe. Not even my lover.
Furthermore, you were judging yourself about being a 29 year old virgin, I have no issue with it
However, I will also ask for no judgement on this next concept i'm about to tell you...
I
realized earlier, one of the other MAIN reasons I let Sidra go, was
because, I didn't like the fact she was still willing to help Lia, and
tell her she loves her and stuff, that to me meant, she was no longer my
friend, who took my side. That's how I am. By nature, I need friends
who will take my side and support me, IF I am in the right, and be
HONEST with me, if I am not. This was not a case of ''we are both
different people'' , this was a case of ''SHE abused ME'' thus, clearly
one is right and one is wrong. From God's perspective, there is no right
and wrong, from the human, community, society perspective, yes, one
person was blatantly wrong, and one was ALL right...that one was me.
Thus I am resentful towards all who support her as a human being but do
not be honest with her about her actions.
Of course, with
Sidra... she only deals with issues YOU come to her with as a problem.
Not what she sees. And Lia would never approach Sidra or anyone saying
''I need help, I'm abusive in intimate relationships, but don't know how
to stop'' , she would never admit to anyone else that she IS abusive.
Thus Sidra couldn't help her with that. To me, that also meant Lia
didn't care enough about healing herself and fixing our relationship/for
the sake of our relationship, she chose her PRIDE, and ego... and being
too proud to admit or ask for help with her main problem, abusive
patterns, and thus got no help with it, but chooses to sort it out
herself.... one day. lol, She's so embarrassed to admit to anyone, or in
the support group, her behavior, she hides it all and pretends to be on
her spiritual high horse of enlightened being. haha...
And Sidra
was not getting involved as a friend, but maintaining her boundary as a
facilitator. But knowing what Lia's done to me, and choosing to still
support her, but yet... distancing herself from me... tome meant she was
no longer a friend. Also, for Lia, knowing I was telling Sidra
EVERYTHING, and to see Sidra still saying ''I Love you Lia'' and not
taking her up on anything, or anyone else taking her up on it, For Lia,
that means ''I still got love and support from people so f*ck it, and
f*ck Acasto, I won't bother, as long as i got people round me supporting
me, whilst i'm abusive, why not keep being abusive? my life's not
disrupted, f*ck the relationship, long as i got my business... I'm
happy'' so that's her basic mentality. She pretends to care because she
feels she would come across as a bad person if she was honest and said
she didn't. Especially to me, as she's the one who pushed for the r.ship
in the first place. So she pretends to be someone socially acceptable.
But really she just cares about becoming powerful, known, and respected
for her business/bodywork that she does and raw food. Long as people are
approaching her saying ''I love what u do, wow, you're so experienced
and knowledgable, so talented... I Love the events you put on, you're so
gifted'' ...She doesn't and won't care about how she is in her personal
life, in intimate r.ships, etc.... because no1 SEES that, so she
doesn't have to care. She'll keep it all secret, and speak quietly, and
hope no1 can see or hear past her shy, quiet, and sweet persona.
hahaha...
Anyway, so yeah, as far as i see it from my perspective
over here, Sidra had a choice of keeping Lia on the course, or me on
the course, and she chose Lia.
It's probably a symptom of BPD
defined as ''Black and white thinking'' we always see things as ''this
or that'' ''If she doesn't love me, if I don't feel loved by her, she
must hate me'' ''If she doesn't take MY side, then she must be taking
HER side'' now that i acknowledge it, it's easier to let it fizzle out.
But
that's how my extremes of duality perception and perspective of life
manifest. It's how i have lived life since my mentality formed, I'm
guessing around 7 it set in, that's the age BPD symptoms of the like and
other disorders/imbalances set into the mind.
- Saturday
-
Sukaina Juma
Hello dear... sorry it took so long to get back to you, I had to switch off for a while from FB... so now catching up.
Ivana Morais won the trip to Spain. That's another time I remembered you, because I knew you were first.
I
totally get what you're saying. Maybe I, too, need time before I can
understand how Sidra sees the world... but then she OWNS her shadow side
and actively acts upon it when suitable. I don't own my shadow side
yet, so I still judge.
Either or thinking is a spectrum and most
of us do utilise it to a great extent. I have done so too... in fact
right now I do - because I feel that Sidra helped out my friend
monetarily for her wedding.
I almost thought I had BPD... but I just manifested sever depression that became paranoid.... all a spectrum.
My
criterion of friendship is different from hers. And she said in one of
her workshops that don't listen to what people say, pay attention to
what they do. Fuck it... I need new friends
So what's the big secret?
Also, I am the one who judges myself for still not attracting a man or being in a relationship... no one else does. Typical
I'm
feeling a lovely sense of peace for no reason... are you feeling it
too?? Sometimes it's a universal thing, sometimes it's personal... this
time I feel it's a universal peace in the energies after a rocky last
week. xx
-
Sukaina Juma
Wow...
trust is just so important Acasto. I hope that you ind people in your
life whom you can trust 100% even when they do eff up every once in a
while. I pray I can, too..... Major trust issues with people right now.
Paranoid. Ha ah. I am safe... I am safe...
- Sunday
-
Sky IndigoStarseed Wanderer
She won it, because I wasn't there. lOl, bet she was happy as f*ck
, she wanted it more than me, I'm happy for her, even though I know she
doesn't like me, and is glad she ''beat'' me, I knew she was vexed at
PTP when my name was on top, but she'd never show it, that's why she
gets along with Lia, they're both the same, kinda fake, don't say or
show how they really feel or think about others. haha... anyway,
Sidra
owns part of her shadow side, but doesn't own others which is the ones
that manifest subconsciously, cause she can't accept inside her
narcissism, she ends up being a complete narcissist. She doesn't own
that she CARES deeply for people, almost too deeply, and she doesn't
wana be held hostage by her emotions, so she pretends she doesn't care
and denies it
Of
course, Sidra judges. She judges me being so open, and honest, because
she's afraid to be. She judges me for being a show off, cause she feels
it won't be accepted by others if she does it, so she does it with a
sense of humor and pretends she's confident and owns it, but inside,
she's nervous of rejection for it.
SO TRUE. Sidra always says she
loves you, and is there for you. But in the end I don't feel loved by
her on a human level, or that she's there for me. Although on a soul
level, I do
YES,
last night I had a major shift, with amazingly peaceful energy, around a
few hours after you sent that message. Haha, didn't know who was
sending it, but felt amazing After a rocky week too, yes Feeling much better today !
Yeah,
paranoia is a vibration we've all tapped into at some point. This book
called the 13 dimensions I think, my friend read out something from the
introduction to me, that stated that most people have ''catastophobia''
which instantly shifted something in me I never knew of...
Catastrophobia. haha... fear of catastrophe has run most of my life.
That shfited just by acknowledging the concept exists Awareness is key!
Yes,
Sidra... helped me a lot before being my facilitator, I felt she was a
friend, partially, that's why i had SO much enthusiasm about the course,
and about promoting her to EVERYONE.when she stopped being my friend, I
still believe in the program, and recommend people to her, but for
sure, I'm not jumping up and down so much about ''how amazing she is''
like I was before. aha... now I'm more neutral
Balance was needed.
I
always used to get my hopes up about people, because I liked when
people paid me extra attention. That's what Sidra did. Now I've
integrated that though, so I feel I'll maintain more neutrality through
out my new experiences with others, as I no longer feel stupid or judge
myself for FEELING excitement over people, thus don't have to manifest
that experience.
Two
Friday, Apr 26th, 2013
You're fine tuned and sensitive today, reading other people easily and clearly. You may play the part of the peacemaker today, and others may perceive you as being a bit self-righteous. Try not to annoy others with the force of your convictions.- 18 April
- Sukaina JumaYeah, that EFT statement might be very profound for you to be at peace. I used a similar one after I was seen as not the right one.
Dear (Sky?)... I am aware that I am bored. I am not going to act upon anything. For various reasons. The most important being I am aware he is not my soul mate. I see a lot of myself in him, so I sympathise with him. That's it - now I am aware.
I only speak with such awareness because I have been made aware by various means that in previous lives, I have misused my charm and beauty and hurt people. I have a karmic number of 16. And someone told me I have a promiscuous energy... in this lifetime, I am technically a virgin - I haven't had a single proper relationship and I do not come onto men. I feel it's not needed - if they are interested, they can come to me.
Most of my experiences have been karmic - which is great, since the veils of forgetfulness and separation are many in my case - I don't remember. And would rather not, because it makes me sad that I have caused such chaos. And still balancing the karma.
This is why I pray I can open up to being with the right man for me - so that I stop directing all my desires onto someone else. There's no point.
In the meantime, I try to sublimate it. But I am very different now to a few months ago. I am still trying to catch up with myself.
I just wanted to clarify that I am actually really careful about my sexual energy. It took ages for me to accept my sexual desires... I want to be with the right man for me for all the right reasons. I want marriage... I want a home.
So when I confuse myself... I get sad that I confuse myself. It's not difficult. Yet it seems to be.
Anyway... love you xx - Sky IndigoStarseed WandererOMG, i have the same thing lol. I wouldn't call it charm and beauty, because it's not from a place of beauty or charm we came from, but manipulation, and that is ugly energy, it's more the fact that we approached and used vulnerable, susceptible people who were weak to say no, believe me, my lesson in this life time i have learned is, if they give in, and get used it's not because we were excessively charming, it's because they didn't know how to say no, or didn't believe they had the right to.
That's what i discovered this morning after meditation. Was that, the main reason all of this relationship stuff happened, was nothing to do with her, and everything to do with me. My pattern with relationships and how i relate to women. I grew up in an environment where if a man said No to a women who claims to want him, there must be something wrong with him, or he's gay. For a man to have standards, or to care about how he is treated was unknown, for a man to say no to sex or relations with any woman who wanted him was strange, and i'd never seen example of it, thus, i don't know how to say ''No'' to women!!! SO, I always get/god manipulated by women easily and could only relate to women who want to manipulate.Those women who wanted nothing from me, i looked past them, and those who wanted ME just for ME, I didn't notice, because they weren't in my awareness asking me for something, or requesting my attention for any selfish reason. Because those women give me space, I saw the space and not them. I could up until now, only notice women who get / got in my face with some form of opposition or negotiation of exchange in energy. Those who respected me as an individual with rights, I did not see!!! Validating the reality, that I will always give to women, say yes to women... making me a ''real man'' . Since i do play the male role in the world as opposite to female this lifetime altho in a female body... this was where i thought i should be.
Didn't clear it completely, but worked on ways i cud say ''no'' to women without feeling sympathy for them and giving in. But there's something i'm not seeing. I'm going to ask.
Anyway, I also had karma in past lives as a leader, having female slaves etc,i've been a complete womanizer as a warrior also, using females for sex etc, u know back in those days...typical man of power , money, and status. Which is why i have such issues with it in this life time, and rebel against being in that position for fear of living it out again. And i have major issues with misuse of sexuality, especially from men to women, but now seeing it from women to men too. But believe me, its not to accredit out charm and beauty, it's not charming or beautiful to manipulate, it's not that they're so attracted to us they can't say no, the power's not ours... it's their weakness to anyone, to humanity, or anyone willing to manipulate them, and that they want to be manipulated that makes them give in.We couldn't have manipulated anyone if they didn't want that experience.
So really, the karma we clear is allowing it.
all experience are karmic, karma is what allows us to be here.
You've caused nothing. You've only been reacting to the karma you were given to learn from, to other stimuli, and been acting out the role we all agreed you would to serve us ALL in growing and expanding. Why do you blame yourself? Furthermore, how big and important do you feel you are that you could cause any chaos that the creator did not want for you to carry out on his behalf? Without his permission, you'd have done nothing . Accept that missy!
How old are you? I forget. Strange for someone like me from Harlem, new york city to meet any adult who is technically a virgin or a virgin in any form. Lol
No , it's not difficult. But you want it to be.
it doesn't make you sad, you choose to feel sad, because you enjoy sadness. It's okay... i do the same. - Sukaina JumaI'm 29 years old - no judgement
What you say makes sense. Thanks for clarifying... manipulation - we all do it. And yes, everything was done in the sphere... if creator didn't want it, it would have been different.
Yes, yes I choose difficult and sad
So.. you're from Harlem? How old are you... then? You're younger than me for sure, I know ... biologically, haha - Sky IndigoStarseed WandererWell, yeah my body's 23 years old, 24 this july
Did they pronounce star of Awakening?
Should have been me, but since i wasn't there, they might have said next person down...
I'll tell you a secret after soull all retreat winner has been announced
Now I'm not on the course, I can the course, I can tell All the Secrets sidra asked me to keep from you guys
That's why i have no secrets, if there's something i wouldn't want EVERYONE to know... I'll tell NO-ONe. Not even my lover.
Furthermore, you were judging yourself about being a 29 year old virgin, I have no issue with it
However, I will also ask for no judgement on this next concept i'm about to tell you...
I realized earlier, one of the other MAIN reasons I let Sidra go, was because, I didn't like the fact she was still willing to help Lia, and tell her she loves her and stuff, that to me meant, she was no longer my friend, who took my side. That's how I am. By nature, I need friends who will take my side and support me, IF I am in the right, and be HONEST with me, if I am not. This was not a case of ''we are both different people'' , this was a case of ''SHE abused ME'' thus, clearly one is right and one is wrong. From God's perspective, there is no right and wrong, from the human, community, society perspective, yes, one person was blatantly wrong, and one was ALL right...that one was me. Thus I am resentful towards all who support her as a human being but do not be honest with her about her actions.
Of course, with Sidra... she only deals with issues YOU come to her with as a problem. Not what she sees. And Lia would never approach Sidra or anyone saying ''I need help, I'm abusive in intimate relationships, but don't know how to stop'' , she would never admit to anyone else that she IS abusive. Thus Sidra couldn't help her with that. To me, that also meant Lia didn't care enough about healing herself and fixing our relationship/for the sake of our relationship, she chose her PRIDE, and ego... and being too proud to admit or ask for help with her main problem, abusive patterns, and thus got no help with it, but chooses to sort it out herself.... one day. lol, She's so embarrassed to admit to anyone, or in the support group, her behavior, she hides it all and pretends to be on her spiritual high horse of enlightened being. haha...
And Sidra was not getting involved as a friend, but maintaining her boundary as a facilitator. But knowing what Lia's done to me, and choosing to still support her, but yet... distancing herself from me... tome meant she was no longer a friend. Also, for Lia, knowing I was telling Sidra EVERYTHING, and to see Sidra still saying ''I Love you Lia'' and not taking her up on anything, or anyone else taking her up on it, For Lia, that means ''I still got love and support from people so f*ck it, and f*ck Acasto, I won't bother, as long as i got people round me supporting me, whilst i'm abusive, why not keep being abusive? my life's not disrupted, f*ck the relationship, long as i got my business... I'm happy'' so that's her basic mentality. She pretends to care because she feels she would come across as a bad person if she was honest and said she didn't. Especially to me, as she's the one who pushed for the r.ship in the first place. So she pretends to be someone socially acceptable. But really she just cares about becoming powerful, known, and respected for her business/bodywork that she does and raw food. Long as people are approaching her saying ''I love what u do, wow, you're so experienced and knowledgable, so talented... I Love the events you put on, you're so gifted'' ...She doesn't and won't care about how she is in her personal life, in intimate r.ships, etc.... because no1 SEES that, so she doesn't have to care. She'll keep it all secret, and speak quietly, and hope no1 can see or hear past her shy, quiet, and sweet persona. hahaha...
Anyway, so yeah, as far as i see it from my perspective over here, Sidra had a choice of keeping Lia on the course, or me on the course, and she chose Lia.
It's probably a symptom of BPD defined as ''Black and white thinking'' we always see things as ''this or that'' ''If she doesn't love me, if I don't feel loved by her, she must hate me'' ''If she doesn't take MY side, then she must be taking HER side'' now that i acknowledge it, it's easier to let it fizzle out.
But that's how my extremes of duality perception and perspective of life manifest. It's how i have lived life since my mentality formed, I'm guessing around 7 it set in, that's the age BPD symptoms of the like and other disorders/imbalances set into the mind. - Saturday
- Sukaina JumaHello dear... sorry it took so long to get back to you, I had to switch off for a while from FB... so now catching up.
Ivana Morais won the trip to Spain. That's another time I remembered you, because I knew you were first.
I totally get what you're saying. Maybe I, too, need time before I can understand how Sidra sees the world... but then she OWNS her shadow side and actively acts upon it when suitable. I don't own my shadow side yet, so I still judge.
Either or thinking is a spectrum and most of us do utilise it to a great extent. I have done so too... in fact right now I do - because I feel that Sidra helped out my friend monetarily for her wedding.
I almost thought I had BPD... but I just manifested sever depression that became paranoid.... all a spectrum.
My criterion of friendship is different from hers. And she said in one of her workshops that don't listen to what people say, pay attention to what they do. Fuck it... I need new friends
So what's the big secret?
Also, I am the one who judges myself for still not attracting a man or being in a relationship... no one else does. Typical
I'm feeling a lovely sense of peace for no reason... are you feeling it too?? Sometimes it's a universal thing, sometimes it's personal... this time I feel it's a universal peace in the energies after a rocky last week. xx - Sukaina JumaWow... trust is just so important Acasto. I hope that you ind people in your life whom you can trust 100% even when they do eff up every once in a while. I pray I can, too..... Major trust issues with people right now. Paranoid. Ha ah. I am safe... I am safe...
- Sunday
- Sky IndigoStarseed WandererShe won it, because I wasn't there. lOl, bet she was happy as f*ck , she wanted it more than me, I'm happy for her, even though I know she doesn't like me, and is glad she ''beat'' me, I knew she was vexed at PTP when my name was on top, but she'd never show it, that's why she gets along with Lia, they're both the same, kinda fake, don't say or show how they really feel or think about others. haha... anyway,
Sidra owns part of her shadow side, but doesn't own others which is the ones that manifest subconsciously, cause she can't accept inside her narcissism, she ends up being a complete narcissist. She doesn't own that she CARES deeply for people, almost too deeply, and she doesn't wana be held hostage by her emotions, so she pretends she doesn't care and denies it
Of course, Sidra judges. She judges me being so open, and honest, because she's afraid to be. She judges me for being a show off, cause she feels it won't be accepted by others if she does it, so she does it with a sense of humor and pretends she's confident and owns it, but inside, she's nervous of rejection for it.
SO TRUE. Sidra always says she loves you, and is there for you. But in the end I don't feel loved by her on a human level, or that she's there for me. Although on a soul level, I do
YES, last night I had a major shift, with amazingly peaceful energy, around a few hours after you sent that message. Haha, didn't know who was sending it, but felt amazing After a rocky week too, yes Feeling much better today !
Yeah, paranoia is a vibration we've all tapped into at some point. This book called the 13 dimensions I think, my friend read out something from the introduction to me, that stated that most people have ''catastophobia'' which instantly shifted something in me I never knew of... Catastrophobia. haha... fear of catastrophe has run most of my life. That shfited just by acknowledging the concept exists Awareness is key!
Yes, Sidra... helped me a lot before being my facilitator, I felt she was a friend, partially, that's why i had SO much enthusiasm about the course, and about promoting her to EVERYONE.when she stopped being my friend, I still believe in the program, and recommend people to her, but for sure, I'm not jumping up and down so much about ''how amazing she is'' like I was before. aha... now I'm more neutral
Balance was needed.
I always used to get my hopes up about people, because I liked when people paid me extra attention. That's what Sidra did. Now I've integrated that though, so I feel I'll maintain more neutrality through out my new experiences with others, as I no longer feel stupid or judge myself for FEELING excitement over people, thus don't have to manifest that experience.
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