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Still alive

Still alive.

Fucking missed Rosanne's texts... my phone or my network and just life. Started listening to Healingw ith the Masters and fell asleep.

Couldn't show much adab to Zuli yesterday... keep absorbign the harsh energies ad they trigger off the energies that area already in me.

last night, felt like being with Imran... so pretended he was hugging me. I keep feeling very sad and lonely.



Today, made love to my imagination of him. Whatever, I find him very sexy.

Wrote email to Fazilat.. who knows anything right? Said thank you, wrote my truth... my truth aint pretty these days.

Just found out moon is now in Scorpio for three days.... whoop.


Cleaned the bathroom.

My niece Samirah is a very sweet baby. Allah please keep her and Khadijah safe and healthy and free from the programming that they have got. I sent her love and healing... pelase let her feel better soon and drink up.

Thanks to internet, accessed my mobile phone voicemail... Rosanne was trying to call, my network wasn't letting her call me :(

Have to call her today... seems nice and caring she is an angel, I just have the wrong end of the life stick.

Feel better after hearing ehr voice... plus sleep was good plus the healing with masters I got but fell asleep to.

Cleaned bathroom

Connor Maynard has a beautiful voice thank you for creating him :) Makes my heart sing.

I deactivated FB yesterday... keep sending people depressing mesages. And kept spending time looking at all the astro crap and crap and crap and crap and LIES.

It feels good to voice my truth a little less mercurial and a little more authentic yet knowing that none of it really matters.

I am sorry the husband I wll or may find and be with.... that I am going through such extremity of emotions... teh anger and sadness and hopelessness and furstration and wanting to ri[ everyone's balls out.

I think suppressing it in the first place was the issue, plus I am clearing for an entire lineage and community... it's not all mine and I end up losing my free will because of the other energies adn stuff.

Contracts.

At least I am alive... I had an opportunity to run into a speeding car yesterday and instinct made me cling to the pavement.

Which is good... because I got to see the baby and have sex this morning.

And listen to Conor Maynar's cover of beautiful monster. Perfection... and I ate breakfast. and Dinner and lunch.


September 18, 2012 This can be an intense time for happenings in your career and your personal life, dear Aries. Extremes of feeling are likely, and power struggles possible. Discomfort with your life as it is can help stimulate you to make important changes, however. You may be encountering some challenges between your personal goals and the demands of your career. The urge to expand and pursue your worldly goals is great, but you are also intent on a certain level of freedom to explore life. Of course, in order to further your career, you need to cultivate some self-discipline. This naturally comes at the expense of your personal freedom at times. Do your best to make changes that come from the heart rather than to randomly rebel against what you feel are restrictions.



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