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    • Morning Rosanne,

      Thanks for your patience. Hope the sun shines brightly on you today smile

      Sure, maybe we can have a phone chat. Monday eve works for me, too.

      In a nutshell and not in logical order - they are interconnected.

      1) Recurrence of depressive symptoms... I just want to check out because after two years of people helping me, I still am creating a life I do not enjoy. Also creating health issues and fatigue which affects other aspects of life. I feel hopeless, especially when I see everyone else progressing magnificently.

      2) Lack of motivation... to find a paying job, to do volunteer work to help others, to take a course... to go out, sometimes. To take care of my health and exercise.

      I haven't looked for work in ages. I am now 28 years old.

      3) No paying job means limited finances for even simple things such as using public transport, mobile phone usage, having better living arrangements (I am still living with my father who triggers me off all the time) and moving out of London as I feel the environment too harsh for me.

      4) Relationships: I have no real friends in London who actually WANT to be my friend and spend time with me... so I end up connecting with the old friends who are no longer serve me and pull my energy down plus I no longer like them... because I am so desperate for company, that anyone is better than no one. I feel I am using people! And then I confuse signals and make embarrassing mistakes.

      I have not yet found the right man to be in a long term relationship with that would lead to marriage. That is really saddening to my soul. All the things I have been doing since February to find the right person have brought nil results.

      I still want to be with a person from my religious faith. and I want a twin flame... ha ha ha. Whatever. Nothing happening and I have asked people to help me find someone, and that has not happened, people make fun of me or criticise me in my family and community and it hurts.

      Evidently, I can not be in a relationship with just anyone who is Muslim and so it is better I don't have to go through it... but there must be someone there for me, right?

      I have made some embarrassing mistakes re a cousin of mine because I am so lonely smile

      Feels as though I am not attractive to anyone! I am beginning to feel I am cursed smile

      Anyway... just a nutshell... this way you know the details and I shan't waste too much time on the phone... I tend to talk too much about nothing these days... Sun in Virgo, apparently!

      Have a great weekend,
      Love,
      Sukaina
  • Rosanne Ainslie
    22 hours ago
    Rosanne Ainslie
    • I honour you. Thank you for choosing me to support you.

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