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Over the Irishman

    • i thought you said you were over irish!

  • 3 hours ago
    Sukaina Juma
    • I did say I was over him. I am over him. Why are you asking a redundant question? 
  • 3 hours ago


  • 2 hours ago
    Tazeen Mohsin
    • the fact you mentioned him on your blog baby.. do a little soul searching.. you seem to be covering a hurt from you even 

  • 33 minutes ago
    Sukaina Juma


    • I suppose I could have mentioned you in my blog... right? You are so vibrant! I will edit it and add your loveliness to my post 

      I am over him.

      My ego is not happy that... well, he's functioning at a higher level than I am, just as was the case when we first met. I still like playing in the mud, he's gone and grabbed so many more stars for himself.

      He lost/quit his job last year, still managed to go to Morocco, and looked for and found a new job last month... then got married the same month. A new job, a new love, a new life... a new shizzle iPad2... lol.

      The little kid in me is feeling like "it's no fair"... it would have been nice for me to have gotten married first, even if I have put the brakes on the paisa, the vocation, the studying, the living a life... the travel and all the rest of it... 

      It's just competition and envy. A little comparing myself and feeling less than. Not holding onto him... I still admire his "vibrancy" and that he plays sports and stuff... not afraid to do things, just does them. Even though he grew up in tough financial circumstances, he still doesn't have blocks to abundance 

      That doesn't look like "in the mud" to me... that doesn't look like someone two steps behind me... that's all 

      And breathe! Because everything is perfect... I am very "persistent" right? 
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