Okay, I guess my blog isn't pornographic any more to the library.
Spoke to Ali on Skype last night... he said the first thing he did was do a Google search for Artemis Persephone! Can you believe it? Said it came up as warrior princess.... And there's no romantic feelings for him here... I can't see myself marrying him :)
He calls himself stubborn, has a temper... same as me.... bloody Elementals we are! LOL :)
I asked him about the fact he's 37 and not married... he said three girls, all liked him, they wanted to marry him and the moment their families saw him with his crutches... game over. They all said how dare you consider a guy who is "disabled"... and we don't want you to become his carer.
Boy, the hurt he felt in his heart hit my heart hard.....
One girl's family stopped speaking to her and said they would disown her... just over the crutches and the weakness in is legs.... cerebral palsy... in the healing book, they gave a specific reason... but I am not even going to read into it....
He's done rock climbing, parachute jumping and trained to be a pilot (but didn't finish) to rebel against the identity.
So then I pointed out... it's still an identity if you call it "my" disability.
Ended up doing a healing session for 1/2 an hour... EFT for his smoking. Inshallah I've helped facilitate a powerful shift... because of my healing energy and because of his willingness and openness to receive healing - not because of me. His soul obviously wants it.
I trust that I did a good job. I have no idea, as usual :)
I started laughing half way through.... lol... not really good... but he's got a light sense of humour... can't remember why I was laughing... whatever.... it's all good.
And I am stopping analyzing stuff. If it comes, it comes.... it hasn't come... it's okay.
At least I have excellent taste in music and did something for someone else.... hope I didn't hurt Sakina too much with my philosophies afterwards... I didn't hold the space for her.... Inshallah next time.... sometimes it just bugs me.
Like my own stuff bugs me.
Had to return the laptop.
Have no plans today... don't feel like it. Need to save on the bling too. As need to travel to collect my things from people's houses next week.
Faiza wanted to meet up so I didn't say no as such. Nicole is coming on Monday so need to pick her up from the airport too. She asked me to. I'm doing it for Allah's sake.... to be friendly and stuff... right? Live my life.
Everything is perfect.
Let go, let go, let go. Make this day the best day so far... regardless of everything that has happened up until now.
So what if he used you energetically? For four months.... and is now married? So what? C'est la vie...
So what if you banged your head again this morning to make your dad be quiet. There's a big bump and some blood. So what?
Laptop or holiday? Decide already!!!
I am give 100% permission for my wisdom and spirit to guide me today and for the rest of my life..... I am abundant NOW.
Pata nahi, amma, iss qaid sey rehaayish kab mile gi....
Spoke to Ali on Skype last night... he said the first thing he did was do a Google search for Artemis Persephone! Can you believe it? Said it came up as warrior princess.... And there's no romantic feelings for him here... I can't see myself marrying him :)
He calls himself stubborn, has a temper... same as me.... bloody Elementals we are! LOL :)
I asked him about the fact he's 37 and not married... he said three girls, all liked him, they wanted to marry him and the moment their families saw him with his crutches... game over. They all said how dare you consider a guy who is "disabled"... and we don't want you to become his carer.
Boy, the hurt he felt in his heart hit my heart hard.....
One girl's family stopped speaking to her and said they would disown her... just over the crutches and the weakness in is legs.... cerebral palsy... in the healing book, they gave a specific reason... but I am not even going to read into it....
He's done rock climbing, parachute jumping and trained to be a pilot (but didn't finish) to rebel against the identity.
So then I pointed out... it's still an identity if you call it "my" disability.
Ended up doing a healing session for 1/2 an hour... EFT for his smoking. Inshallah I've helped facilitate a powerful shift... because of my healing energy and because of his willingness and openness to receive healing - not because of me. His soul obviously wants it.
I trust that I did a good job. I have no idea, as usual :)
I started laughing half way through.... lol... not really good... but he's got a light sense of humour... can't remember why I was laughing... whatever.... it's all good.
And I am stopping analyzing stuff. If it comes, it comes.... it hasn't come... it's okay.
At least I have excellent taste in music and did something for someone else.... hope I didn't hurt Sakina too much with my philosophies afterwards... I didn't hold the space for her.... Inshallah next time.... sometimes it just bugs me.
Like my own stuff bugs me.
Had to return the laptop.
Have no plans today... don't feel like it. Need to save on the bling too. As need to travel to collect my things from people's houses next week.
Faiza wanted to meet up so I didn't say no as such. Nicole is coming on Monday so need to pick her up from the airport too. She asked me to. I'm doing it for Allah's sake.... to be friendly and stuff... right? Live my life.
Everything is perfect.
Let go, let go, let go. Make this day the best day so far... regardless of everything that has happened up until now.
So what if he used you energetically? For four months.... and is now married? So what? C'est la vie...
So what if you banged your head again this morning to make your dad be quiet. There's a big bump and some blood. So what?
Laptop or holiday? Decide already!!!
I am give 100% permission for my wisdom and spirit to guide me today and for the rest of my life..... I am abundant NOW.
Pata nahi, amma, iss qaid sey rehaayish kab mile gi....
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