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Buh-bye

I still need to work on forgiving him for using my body for his sexual gratification... from August 2011 up until February 2012. That's really wrong and he's an idiot.

And as for the stuff after his getting married - I really don't know. I'm weird, and am sometimes wrong about things. Or he's full of crap.

Whatever.

Buh-bye... my 26 year old echo had better get over it now. I was actually getting my hopes up a little this morning and yesterday. Sad, sad... very sad.

I need to get a job. I actually don't know quite what I need.

P.S. Imran, I meant when I added you back in December and wrote you an email on this very email account. No reply. Predictable. Idiot.

Damn, I hate being Artemis. I have such rotten luck with men :(

I finally bit the bullet and called Ali yesterday after three lame ass days of him saying he'd call and then saying he got home too late. That was Monday... Tuesday, I fell asleep at 8 and he was free at 10pm and yesterday I called him at 9 and he said he was eating... wtf? And would call me in a bit. I fell asleep and at 10:33 pm said he wasn't home so would call me today.

And this a guy for whom I have no romantic feelings at all... but he's being a pretty lame friend.

Rotten luck with men. One's married (and I still have feelings, yes, being honest, I cried a little just now) and so I can't really have a friendship with him and the second.... sigh....

And I finally finished reading It's Just a Date. Which is an accomplishment, most of it was really good advice, some of it was really crappy advice. And I'm here, with the book, lots of nice advice... and still not wanting to meet Ali for "coffee". He's my best bet at the moment...

Imran is married... weird. Very weird. But a good weird. He's happy :) And that's all I keep praying for. Ma boi... :)

So if he's shifted so much, why the fuck am I not allowing myself shift?

Bloody light worker business.


Allah, Angel Daniel and all the angels and beings of light.... please help me have a few good romantic relationships or whatever it is... and finally create my blissful marriage, okay?

Well, today is a New Moon so I'm going outside in the garden and sun to meditate.

I don't think I've cried for a week and a half.... I've been laughing a lot, especially at Sharif's wedding! I had an amazing weekend.....

Good, the density is coming out... the real stuff.

Boo hooo hooo hooo - I haven't spoken to Tazeen in two weeks, fascinating how cold she can be... I usually am the one who breaks the silence... she doesn't. Whatever....

15 minutes of crazy crying later - it's done... I even came up for a Travis song to accompany my other blog post.





From: Sukaina Juma 
To: Imran 
Sent: Thursday, 22 March 2012, 11:40
Subject: Re: Join my network on LinkedIn
:)


From: Imran
To: Sukaina Juma
Sent: Thursday, 22 March 2012, 11:01
Subject: Re: Join my network on LinkedIn

Wa Salaam Sukaina,


Who's Gabriele?? and i didnt remove you from my freinds list, i guess you did. Actually i enjoy my job, and it does pay the bills. Never been one to really express my creative talents (i dont think i have any) :)


No stopped taking pictures a while ago, but still enjoy travelling.


Yes i got married this year, although i wouldnt like to discuss it.


There isnt any weirdness, infact i am always confidently CAUTIOUS rather than weird. i wont explain myself, but i'll say everything is cool.
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