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All I know is I have to write and release. Write and release. Write and release.

The day's gone in tiredness and at least doing some productive work. Right now, anxiety energies are in my heart. I crossed two cute Pakistani guys and, as usual, either couldn't or didn't meet their eye.

I feel really, really ungrounded. Ground.

Practise. How does one practise? WTH?

And then I have to go home and be around the father.

I saw tentacles. As though I am not letting go or it is not letting go of me.

Thank goodness I got rid of the man-boy from my energy.

Now there's a lump in my throat.

I became sad on the first day because I can't see, I am short-sighted. And all my other health issues.

And now I am sad because I don't know and I have manifested all of this. That if I am so powerful, do I not have it within me to really reach my grand potential?

I know I asked for lots of grand things and a complete change. And then I asked for "or better."

Grant me the best, dear Allah. Let me feel the connection to you now.

And I haven't had a single furry animal - preferably cat - in four days. Nothing to stroke. Please send me a friendly kitty tonight.

It's gotten cold today. L'hiver est arrivé.

My memory keeps going and losing reference. Which is good, because the energetic charge is going.

Trust. Trust. I am here. Trust. They are there, all this help is around you. You know this. You are aware of this. Open up to receiving it. Let your higher self guide you. Quiet the mind. Breathe. Breathe in trust. Breathe in love. Radiate love and healing. That is your purpose. You know this. Express me in your unique way, through poetry and colouring.

Trust that it is all perfect and it will come to you in exactly the right time.

Trust.

You are good enough, you are enough.

Everything counts. Two guys checked you out today. That's nice :) I felt good.

You need to buy milk, bananas, orange juice.

What does your body's wisdom say. Anything else?

You are wizard, druid and high priestess too. You are angel, too. Everything is perfect. Life is unfolding perfectly.

He is just a lower density. You are safe.

Text Sidra to ask what time you guys are meeting tomorrow for work and business.

Gratitude. Thankfulness. Gratitude. Love. Kindness and compassion over judgement. Detachment leads to flow. Flexibility leads to freedom.

Bless her her talents, gifts and success and bless your unique talents, gifts and success that is already present. Unlock the knowledge that its your when the timing is perfect. Everything is perfect.

Trust.

Alhamdulillah. Help me, Allah, help me. Please. Angels, guides, all of my entourage, help me today, in this moment. Please. Thank you. May you be blessed.

Need to go now to do the groceries.

I am a powerful, gifted, loving and transformational healer. We all are.

Relaxxxxxxxxxxxxx.
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