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I put up a Facebook status update early this morning: Loving the Delete button today.

Then to prove it, I deleted it! XD

I deleted people again. It's funny how this literally has a physical effect on me. Deleted the girl who never speak to me, deleted a guy from one of the workshops, deleted a few others. Yes, deleted Osama. And now have made my profile as hidden and hard to find as before I added Imran last year. It's only after him that I felt like parading myself online. No one can add me as a friend or even send me a message. Those things keep getting me into trouble. All the inspirational poster in my album are now only for people on my list.

Enough!

By Deep Life Quotes
"You keep attracting the same people, because you need to learn the same lesson. When you pass the test, the same people will stop coming." #DLQ
So, for me, it's a matter of deleting them. And staying the heck away from Facebook in general. And helping two girls out today with stuff I can do and had time to do for them. And then figuring out that the wireless does work on the net book so that means I need to call my service provider to ask them why it's not working at home.

It's a matter of NOT befriending people when they tell you the truth... 
Imran: I'm selfish and naive. 
Farwa: I'm a bitch.

They know themselves better than you'll ever intuit. Forget that there's a spark of the Divine in each person.

Those people use you as a healer. The healing energy - nothing personal. No one really likes Sukaina for Sukaina. Well, of course they do! I meant, none of the new people have liked Sukaina for Sukaina. None of the Facebook people for sure - for obvious reasons. I never met them in real life! Doh!
And they were men :P

Okay,  I think my libido is finally in check - mainly because I'm about to get my period any second. And yes, I am still going to have to tone down my desires for a relationship and marriage. Because if it ain't there, I don't need it, otherwise it would be there.
I still don't accept myself enough, I don't like my physical shape, I'm still scared of men and of being hurt again.... so there you go :) And then, younger girls inspire me to be more concerned with clothes and earning money to buy those clothes. Or rather, I should. And get inspiration from runners to run and yoga people to do yoga and Sidra to do whatever the hell i is I'm doing for Integrating U.

Things to do: 
prepare for Zeshan's English lesson on Friday.
Call talk Talk and sort out my wireless.
Pray Maghrib Isha salaat and meditate and ask Allah for guidance and help and joy. Feeling a tad better but the sadness is still there! Refuses to budge!
Call Ingrid and hopefully she's back from her holiday so I can book a Bach Flower remedies appointment and get it going. Or eat walnuts and wild oat and hope for the best. What does wild oat look like?

Okay, it looks like wheat - doh. But it seems to only be in Bach remedy form.
Resume driving lessons - I've forgotten everything :P
Buy milk and cake - or cookies as well. I'm sorry, my dear body, but I want cake and sweet things. I need to EFT tap on that too.

The PC at the library is going to sign off now. I asked if they had wi-fi - they don't :o

Grumble.

Now how do I do my work????
Breathe: everything is perfect!

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