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From: Sukaina Juma [mailto:sukaina@ymail.com]
Sent: 07 September 2011 22:33
To: Imran Lakha (ilakha)
Subject:
Hey Imran, old buddy, old pal,
 
Are you stalking me on SimplyShia? My profile ain't that interesting :)
 
How are you? :)
 
Oh, and just in case you still have those MP3s of Dua e Kumayl and Dua e Iftitah by Abathar I sent you back in the day, can you send them to me? I deleted all the emails and forgot to save the MP3 files before doing so - doh! then my computer crashed so I lost them from my hard disk :(
 
Belated Eid Mubarak :)
 
Sukaina

Thursday, 8 September 2011, 11:30

Salaam Sukaina,
 
Thanks for reaching out… I’m doing well by the Grace of God. You?  If you’re referring to my visit to your profile then yes I did… you seem softer and more open than before, which is always good.
Unfortunately I had my laptop re-imaged and lost a great deal of information, including my emails. Apologies.  Lastly Eid Mubarak to you too, Inshallah I hope your prayers were accepted.
 
Regards, Imran. 
 
 
Thursday, 8 September 2011, 21:31

Hey Imran,

Thanks for replying with such kind words.

My life is slowly improving - God likes me more than I give Him credit for :)

I guess some of us take a lot longer to heal ourselves and our lives than others do - and, to be honest, you played a huge role in helping me out of the darkness I was in. I shall always be indebted to you for that.

Thank you, Imran. Seriously. Thank you.

I found my voice and began to express myself and write once again after not being able to for years. I actually started a blog in reaction to my emails not being read - lol. Let others benefit from my wisdom - lol

I also began to like myself a lot more. And understand my merits, things that needed to be addressed, values, boundaries, expectations and limitations. And those of others.

No problems re: the duas. I'll get my hands on them somehow.

One prayer of Ramadhan has definitely been accepted.

He has given me the ability to fully forgive myself and you.

And also the courage to finally ask you for forgiveness for my behaviour - let's say from the very beginning and up until those nasty and rude emails in January/February or whenever. There were other ways to handle the events and behaviours that I didn't approve of and I was not equipped to do so at the time. Life lessons, right?

Unfortunate is he who cannot gain a few sincere friends during his life and more unfortunate is the one who has gained them and then lost them (through his deeds).
~ Imam Ali (a.s.)

This saying has been hounding me for an entire year.

So, yeah.

I trust that if you haven't yet completely forgiven me, you'll find it in your heart to do so one day.

Take care and God bless,

Sukaina :)

P.S. Trust the cats are fine and are ignoring you as usual :)
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yoshi said…
Suki, that email was just lovely...and fyi: that quote by Imam Ali (a.s.) is one of my favourites. <3
11 September 2011 at 21:57
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