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Do I honestly have "kick me" or "imbecile" or "loserface" written on my forehead?

Certain people in my life are telling me things and saying things to me and forwarding things to me that really insult my intelligence.

Most of it is uber-ly Islamic stuff about God and pain being a test and marriage and parental permission and I'm like..... WTF?

I guess this is karma for stuffing psychology and ENLP and - back in the day - my then current interpretation of Islam down other people's throats.

I guess if I look at the intentions behind these people's really, really, really ANNOYING behaviours, I can let it go and ignore it and click delete on the emails and messages.

It's like, I want to be spiritual and I've got people who went fundo during Ramadhan stuffing weird-ass stuff in my inbox. And it's not even weird-ass Shia stuff, it's just generic Islam from scholarly people I don't even know or respect. *big shrugs*

The more I try to show love to people, the more people are mean to me: someone rang our house yesterday and I thought it was my mum and said How are you? And then realised it wasn't. I said, sorry, I thought you were someone else - I  think you have the wrong phone number. The lady just slammed the receiver down. Really ouch-inducing. I mean, WTF?

Karma being released for being mean to a telemarketer when my head and emotions were taking control a few months ago.

Imran doesn't want to be friends, Umair is no longer a friend and only replied to my email because he's polite like that, Akhlaq and his email.

People just do NOT smile back on the street.

I keep trying to stay with my higher self and then these small things trigger things off in my energy space and I end up venting either to people in real life on  Skype for hours (yup, that's you Ashiya) or writing here.

At least I've stopped posting stuff as a FB status - phew.

Universe: stop sending me crap by the bucketful.

Not funny. I am not amused. :P

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