Alhamdulillah, I only had to go to wimbledon yesterday and today to finish off the forms I did ask for cute guys, saw quite a few and then I realised I hadn't asked for single ones, Shia Muslim ones and ones that thought I was attractive - doh!
Saw two or three good looking aka HOT Asian and Muslim fellas today - sigh!
Saw a girl in hijab and weraing the entire coat thing, not my idea of pretty but she had the aura: nice handbag, expensive clothes, obviously lives in wimbledon I said Salaam to her and then I walked off, not folloing up - I suppose there's still a shy part of me that needs addressing - and I was focussing on praying to God: "Come on, she isn't screwed up, you've given her a job and affluence, give it to me too! And she's so skinny, if you love me as much as you love her, then do something about it! Help me help myself!"
I dunno - a good friend of mine emails me today saying hse's envious of my being in London, my dad pushing me towards independence and being in the midst of all things whereas she's in Pakistan with her family stuff
I understand and yet, perhaps she doesn't understand my situation with clarity
No one is going to give me a job, the way people give her and OTHER people jobs - it's the end of September and that hasn't happened to me - all I have managed to do is self harm again after an entire year of not, finished off my work for this month, eat an entire pack of choc chip cookies that must have been 20 at least and come back to this hell-hole whilst "missing" Imran on the walk back home - and then telling myself what an idiot I am for ever dreaming about or cording myself to a jackass who has no basic common courtesy about responding to emails - I mean, seriously, I deserve SO MUCH BETTER! *smacks head* IU
I made a new ginger cat friend - his name is Chuck and he is very cute, chubby and friendly and reminds me of all the ginger cats I used to have in Karachi - I love him!
My heart still aches, as though it is empty and is missing the love that only my husband can give - don't like it, and yet it's there I hug trees and my teddy bear to ease the aching - sometimes it works
I am going to listen to another healing recording tonight
As for the title, the mircales are that I could walk the day after beating myself to a pulp, I attended Sidra's workshop and had this lady Vikki like my energy so much, she actually crawled under the tables to get to me first before anyone else did (as if - that crowd really made me feel odd, no real connection), SIdra has invited me to do her 3 day workshop without expecting immediate payment and saying "it can't harm you, can it?" even though, for some reason, I didn't feel anything happened to me on the day I was there, like it does at the ENLP days, I managed to get into apartment buildings without a fuss or mean people, four to five guys checked me out and one might have been a Muslim (lol - I am so lame!) it was gorgeous walking home tonight, I met Chuck two days in a row and he let me stroke him and send him healing
Lots of other miracles - one being that You are now soothing my heart becuase I keep asking you to let me love myself and let that be enough - although I do kind of wish You'd make my life path easier
I am considering changing my entire Soul Contract with You - this one is way too hard - my entire life is stuck and all I see is other people moving onwards all the time
The kid inside of me knows it's not fair!!!!!!!It just doesn't make sense to me any more None of it Not a single bit of it- it's soyothpe-y -people
From my Numerology report, hich is pretty bang on 80%o of the time:
*****
I came across these and putting htem here as a reminder for moi:
The only person who can truly love you is YOU. You are an extension of God and you are made from the Creators love. Most of us do great harm to ourselves by thinking of ourselves as less than God essence. We are God manifest in reality. Allow yourself to tap into this reservoir of love deep within your heart and you will realize that no thing and no one outside of yourself can truly give you the love you are seeking. You are who you have been waiting for; it is your love that you seek.
by: How to Raise Your Vibration
Today's Reading from Healing Light - If you feel that everything you're doing right now isn't working, or that every situation you face is working against you, be glad! Believe it or not, on a soul level you're simply entering a major learning curve. The only thing blocking you is thinking too much, instead of just following your spirit. The more your soul asserts itself, the more you must respond from your Higher Self. View all aggravating circumstances as an invitation to grow and flex your Divine muscles. Stop lamenting, "Why is this happening to me?" as though life is unfair. The awakened soul knows that isn't the case: Life just is - it's your response that decides the outcome. Stay connected to your Higher Self rather than drowning in drama. Above all, take a close look at how much of your behavior is simply an unsavory, unconscious "mess" of conditioning acquired from childhood, peer pressure, the media, society, or even past lives, and not a reflection of your true spirit. Your soul's purpose right now is to eliminate all of the overthinking and negative habits that clog your judgment, hijack your freedom, and victimize you. Instead, use the power of your Higher Self. Stop playing the victim of circumstance. Focus, learn, and choose to respond appropriately when confronted with life's challenges.
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We are TRANSFORMERS. We are transforming our darkness (dense lower vibrations) into LIGHT (spiritual higher vibrations). We are in a period of multidimensional detox where we are cleansing old parts of our ancient soul that need to be released. This requires our darker aspects ~ that have hidden themselves from us ~ to reveal themselves so we can see them, acknowledge them, choose to transcend them and release them. This can create great difficulty within our being if we don't love and forgive ourselves. Give thanks for everything you have ever been ~ you have learned so much! But it is time to let it go, let it go, let it go.
May we move into freedom ~ Sabrina
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There is no remedy for love than to love more.
Because of your smile, you make life more beautiful.
You make a difference… everything you do in your life touches someone…while we may never know the extent of our ripples, we only have to open our eyes a little wider to see that those ripples are spreading… Today, choose wisely what you send out as your ripple impacts your life and the lives of others…K.Brixey
Lord, bless my week. May I face all the challenges with enthusiasm in my heart
Saw two or three good looking aka HOT Asian and Muslim fellas today - sigh!
Saw a girl in hijab and weraing the entire coat thing, not my idea of pretty but she had the aura: nice handbag, expensive clothes, obviously lives in wimbledon I said Salaam to her and then I walked off, not folloing up - I suppose there's still a shy part of me that needs addressing - and I was focussing on praying to God: "Come on, she isn't screwed up, you've given her a job and affluence, give it to me too! And she's so skinny, if you love me as much as you love her, then do something about it! Help me help myself!"
I dunno - a good friend of mine emails me today saying hse's envious of my being in London, my dad pushing me towards independence and being in the midst of all things whereas she's in Pakistan with her family stuff
I understand and yet, perhaps she doesn't understand my situation with clarity
No one is going to give me a job, the way people give her and OTHER people jobs - it's the end of September and that hasn't happened to me - all I have managed to do is self harm again after an entire year of not, finished off my work for this month, eat an entire pack of choc chip cookies that must have been 20 at least and come back to this hell-hole whilst "missing" Imran on the walk back home - and then telling myself what an idiot I am for ever dreaming about or cording myself to a jackass who has no basic common courtesy about responding to emails - I mean, seriously, I deserve SO MUCH BETTER! *smacks head* IU
I made a new ginger cat friend - his name is Chuck and he is very cute, chubby and friendly and reminds me of all the ginger cats I used to have in Karachi - I love him!
My heart still aches, as though it is empty and is missing the love that only my husband can give - don't like it, and yet it's there I hug trees and my teddy bear to ease the aching - sometimes it works
I am going to listen to another healing recording tonight
As for the title, the mircales are that I could walk the day after beating myself to a pulp, I attended Sidra's workshop and had this lady Vikki like my energy so much, she actually crawled under the tables to get to me first before anyone else did (as if - that crowd really made me feel odd, no real connection), SIdra has invited me to do her 3 day workshop without expecting immediate payment and saying "it can't harm you, can it?" even though, for some reason, I didn't feel anything happened to me on the day I was there, like it does at the ENLP days, I managed to get into apartment buildings without a fuss or mean people, four to five guys checked me out and one might have been a Muslim (lol - I am so lame!) it was gorgeous walking home tonight, I met Chuck two days in a row and he let me stroke him and send him healing
Lots of other miracles - one being that You are now soothing my heart becuase I keep asking you to let me love myself and let that be enough - although I do kind of wish You'd make my life path easier
I am considering changing my entire Soul Contract with You - this one is way too hard - my entire life is stuck and all I see is other people moving onwards all the time
The kid inside of me knows it's not fair!!!!!!!It just doesn't make sense to me any more None of it Not a single bit of it- it's soyothpe-y -people
From my Numerology report, hich is pretty bang on 80%o of the time:
PINNACLES
The Pinnacles are four long-term cycles, or periods, on our Life Path. Each
Pinnacle represents a particular lesson we are working on. The first Pinnacle
usually lasts from birth to between the ages of 30 and 35 (your specific Pinnacle
periods are provided below). The middle two Pinnacles each last nine years.
The last Pinnacle will stay with you for the remainder of your life.
The Pinnacles are very important. The transition from one Pinnacle to the next
is always strongly felt. Your Pinnacles reveal the general conditions and events
you will experience during the period. The Pinnacle describes the atmosphere, or
the essential challenge you will be faced with.
You can prepare yourself for the times ahead by knowing your approaching
Pinnacle number.
The transition from one Pinnacle to the next is usually prepared for
approximately 2 years in advance. The latter part of that two year period is
particularly strong. Sukaina, you will likely make some life-altering decisions --
marriage, job or career change, or any number of major changes in your
character.
Perhaps the most strongly felt change -- internally as well as externally -- is the
transition from the first to the second Pinnacle. This change usually takes place
in your late 20s or early 30s -- the exact date depends on your Life Path number
and is provided below. You begin to feel the impact of this coming change
approximately two years prior. This is usually a difficult transition, but once
crossed usually provides a clear sense of direction in one's life. It also gives you
a much firmer sense of your identity. It is a gateway to maturity.
Your First Pinnacle (from birth until age 30) is 11
This is a challenging period in which you are at a high point of sensitivity and
intuition. There is so much going on in your psyche that you can suffer much
confusion over direction and identity. On the other hand, there is a wide open
channel between the personal consciousness and the higher realms of the
unconscious. Sukaina, you are constantly being inspired and even assaulted by
information and insight.
Because of the intensity of these revelations, you must learn to ground your life
in faith and a practical vocation that keeps your feet on the ground everyday.
This is a period of enormous spiritual and personal growth. You will come out
of it with a highly uncommon clarity and understanding of life. At the same time, it
is a period of enormous demands, emotionally and spiritually. Any attachment
you might have to specific identity traits -- who you think you are and why you are
here, for example -- is constantly challenged.
There is a desire to settle into some field or way of life to attain stability, but the
energy of this Pinnacle is not allowing it. It is as if there is a destination, or
destiny, to which you are being driven. You do not feel in control of this process.
Instead, you are acutely aware of the forces that are shaping your life. You must
surrender to them.
Meanwhile, you experience the emotional turmoil that can come with this highly
charged period.
There is a definite, even compelling, sense of being different. You are aware of
a feeling of receiving special attention from spiritual forces. Your perception of life
is somehow more acute than others; you see more clearly and more spiritually
due to your high degree of sensitivity. It is as if you have a perfectly accurate
peripheral vision, in which everything stands out in sharp relief. At times you may
feel that you can see into the souls of things.
At the same time, you may feel like a foreigner to the earth. You are completely
impractical. Sometimes you may feel that you do not understand the workings of
the physical world. Practical things escape you. You feel awkward and clumsy
at times, and are aware perhaps how fluidly other lives are going. This increases
your sense of being an outsider. *****
I came across these and putting htem here as a reminder for moi:
The only person who can truly love you is YOU. You are an extension of God and you are made from the Creators love. Most of us do great harm to ourselves by thinking of ourselves as less than God essence. We are God manifest in reality. Allow yourself to tap into this reservoir of love deep within your heart and you will realize that no thing and no one outside of yourself can truly give you the love you are seeking. You are who you have been waiting for; it is your love that you seek.
by: How to Raise Your Vibration
Today's Reading from Healing Light - If you feel that everything you're doing right now isn't working, or that every situation you face is working against you, be glad! Believe it or not, on a soul level you're simply entering a major learning curve. The only thing blocking you is thinking too much, instead of just following your spirit. The more your soul asserts itself, the more you must respond from your Higher Self. View all aggravating circumstances as an invitation to grow and flex your Divine muscles. Stop lamenting, "Why is this happening to me?" as though life is unfair. The awakened soul knows that isn't the case: Life just is - it's your response that decides the outcome. Stay connected to your Higher Self rather than drowning in drama. Above all, take a close look at how much of your behavior is simply an unsavory, unconscious "mess" of conditioning acquired from childhood, peer pressure, the media, society, or even past lives, and not a reflection of your true spirit. Your soul's purpose right now is to eliminate all of the overthinking and negative habits that clog your judgment, hijack your freedom, and victimize you. Instead, use the power of your Higher Self. Stop playing the victim of circumstance. Focus, learn, and choose to respond appropriately when confronted with life's challenges.
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Both the ego and the shadow support each other because the main job of the ego is to keep us in separation, fragmented from our God self. In fact your ego will deny that your shadow is a part of your being, in any way. The ego knows if we recognize and heal our shadow, our shadow will be integrated into our God self which means the ego will be out of a job and integrated as well. In order to keep the shadow from being acknowledged, the ego will assist the shadow by helping the shadow to distance itself from its source of discomfort which creates further separation and denial within our being. For example, when we see someone misbehaving or being “bad” we pass judgment (ego) and immediately label it as “not us” (shadow). We blame (ego & shadow) and point fingers at everyone else for their inappropriate behavior projecting (ego & shadow) those parts of ourselves we have denied (ego) onto them making ourselves superior (ego) to all the other people out there (ego) who could never, never be reflections of ourselves. The ego loves to reinforce its sense of separateness by making us feel justified and self-righteous in our blaming. The egos basic premise is that of victim hood and a victim must always have someone to blame. Because our shadow avoids everything unpleasant, it will avoid taking responsibility for the co-creation of the circumstance and stuff it in the subconscious mind simply wanting it to go away leaving us alone. Unfortunately, this perpetuates and intensifies our darkness keeping our rejected parts inside the shadow and away from the light of our God self. ~Sabrina
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May we move into freedom ~ Sabrina
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"Be more concerned with your character than with your reputation. Your character is what you really are, while your reputation is merely what others think you are." - John Wooden
There is no remedy for love than to love more.
~ Henry David Thoreau
By Lessons Learned In Life
You change for two reasons. Either you learn enough that you want to or you’ve been hurt enough that you have to.
The reality of the other person lies not in what he reveals to you but in what he cannot reveal to you. Therefore, if you want to understand him, listen not to what he says but to what he does not say! ~Blissful Quotes
Welcome every morning with a smile. Look on the new day as another special gift from your Creator, another golden opportunity to complete what you were unable to finish yesterday. Be a self-starter. Let your first hour set the theme of success and positive action that is certain to echo through your entire day. Today will never happen again. Don't waste it with a false start or no start at all. You were not born to fail.
Never regret a day in your life. Good days give you happiness, bad days give you experiences, both are essential to life. The only job where you start at the top is digging a hole. Failure is not fatal and success is not final.
Because of your smile, you make life more beautiful.
--Thich Nhat Hanh-
You make a difference… everything you do in your life touches someone…while we may never know the extent of our ripples, we only have to open our eyes a little wider to see that those ripples are spreading… Today, choose wisely what you send out as your ripple impacts your life and the lives of others…K.Brixey
Have an incredible week... ♥♥♥ Kenny Simple Steps Real Change
Thought for Today: I move forward fearlessly, for my angels protect and guide me. I remember to ask them for help throughout the day, checking in with them frequently.
Lord, bless my week. May I face all the challenges with enthusiasm in my heart
Senhor, abençoa minha semana. Que eu encare os desafios com entusiasmo
The universe is conspiring in your favor. It is placing before you in every moment all of the right and perfect people, circumstances, and situations with which to answer life's only question: Who am I. Have you decided yet?
One day I said to God --
I'm going to search
For the meaning to my existence
I'm going to find the talent within me
Then develop it to the best of my ability
And I'm going to make the most of this Life
That I have been given
And I'm going to do this
Without infringing upon anyone else's
Opportunity to do the same
And God replied
'I couldn't ask for anything more'"
Javan
I'm going to search
For the meaning to my existence
I'm going to find the talent within me
Then develop it to the best of my ability
And I'm going to make the most of this Life
That I have been given
And I'm going to do this
Without infringing upon anyone else's
Opportunity to do the same
And God replied
'I couldn't ask for anything more'"
Javan
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