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DAYMN!

I'm so smoking hot!

Photo taken 17th June 2011, on a bus in Chelsea, London

So, tell me again, why the hell am I still not only single, but not a single man (I am not counting the pathetic FB fraaaanship requests) has hit on me since Imran? And that was... uhm... the last time was.... uhm.... 14th October 2010. After that, well, if we count 11th November 2010 (but I don't)...

I mean, okay there are definitely girls who are hotter than I am, who show a lot more skin than I do, who have bigger boobs (yes, I am still a 32A cup, thank you very much), who are much skinner and therefore hotter than I am.... and they always get the attention. And even the hijabi girls, some are really hotter and prettier and better coiffed and have fancier clothes and make up and shades and so are more attractive to the men.

But still!!!

Come on, Universe... I am Spirit come on earth to have a human experience. I am not even saying I desire to become a promiscuous skanky person. I don't. I am monogamous and loyal, but I am also 27 and a half freaking years old and not a single DATE! Not a single cheesy rose, not a single box of chocolates (yeah, yeah... I know, I didn't let him, but he's a turd and not "the one" so :p to you) and no weeks away to Paris or Turkey....or Cuba or New Zealand or even Iraq (yeah, yeah, he promised me, and that's never gonna happen, now is it?!)

COME ON ALREADY!!!!!

I'm Ms Sexy Chick, I'm Ms Dirty Dirty Dancer, I'm Ms You Make Me Wanna, I'm Ms Boomshakalaka, I'm Ms Hips Don't Lie, I'm Ms Single and Horny....

So, the question is: where the flipping hell are you, Travis?

I'll bet you, he's fasting and he's either sleeping and dreaming of food and water, or awake and working and dreaming of food and water or some ridiculous sport or some extremely busy and important stuff or something and is least bothered about finding me... or he's so into spirituality mode that he's just in constant worship with His Lord.

Now where the hell does that leave me?! I'm trying out the spirituality mode, and I have realised that getting married is now definitely part of the package deal. My libido is extremely high. Disturbingly so. And, furthermore, can I not have that which I know is there in reality somewhere? Do I have to wait even longer? I mean, have I still not gotten over the first love of my life? Have I not learned all there was to learn? (and I know in my heart the answer is a gentle... No, Sukaina... you still need to grow more, and forgive more and accept more and trust in Me more.... come on, you know this!)

Chammaat on your head, my new, yet-to-be-discovered man-boy! And another... and then a head rub, because I'm annoying like that! :)

Hehehehehe... I love the days I'm so frivolously happy and frisky and playful.... all in front of the computer, mind you.

God, I'm so boring... :p

I need to get a life. I don't need a man-boy, just a life that I love.

Three and a half hours before iftaar and no sign of an aaloo samosa ;)
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