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Maudlin phase

I just think it's the final shedding of the old skin and the old life that used to be mine...

So bear with me for a little while longer... I can't paste these to my Facebook profile just at the moment, I've already been flooding it with The Corrs music videos for Saint Paddy's Day...

I'm painting my life by music these days.

Anyway, I end up deleting everything afterwards :p

I'm not feeling the depth of remorse and longing that these songs imply... not any more.

But I also never really realised that they would now be so apt for me, especially Where You Want To Be.

Although, having said that, I would laugh hysterically at myself for even thinking of sending this to the object of my so-called desire. I just don't feel it anymore.

Distance and time... blows it all away...

Phew...

Actually... after having JUST SAID THAT, now I don't really know.

This stupid heart keeps blowing hot and cold. Grabbing on to the image of what I could have had but yearning for the twin flame and not settling for just any old, rubbishy soul mate...

I'm sure that there is someone else out there who will slot in perfectly with my Soul, the way he did, but be there for the long haul.

Who I'll actually meet in the flesh *shakes head*

And with whom I'll even share my flesh with *chuckles*

Hahahahaha... you knew I wouldn't be able to resist adding this little bit of cheeky!

Pffffftttttttt.....

And this is why I love Darren Hayes and Savage Garden... (I think I've already posted these songs before, but what the hey...)



Where You Want To Be is actually the perfect adieu song. I'll post it on Youtube in honour of the Virgo Full Moon and of Noruz on Sunday... new beginnings. But I'm not one to "settle for somebody hold now..." I can wait for the right person and the right time and place... *taps fingers*

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