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WTF???

I freaking HATE being a Four. And I also dislike painful, spot-on synchronicity:


Your Type Four EnneaThoughtsm for November 6th—

Fours long for an ideal mate. They will idealize someone but as Fours get to know the person better, they will become disenchanted, realizing the other is not the perfect "parent" who will rescue them. Fours will lose interest and resume their search and fantasies. Today, reflect on this pattern in your life. What in you wants to maintain it? (Personality Types, 141)

How do I become centred, whole and Adult?

Fucking hate it - never falling in love again. It's just too stupid :p

I was living an OK life without it. Honestly. Life goes on.

If I'm honest, although I'm saying I'm over him, I'm holding hopes of a reconciliation because of the ruddy horror-scopes and the fact that he keeps "liking" my FB statuses.

Aaaaaargh.... I hate this!!!! I do!!!! I need it to GO....

Weather's very weird, I'm actually SWEATING!

Umair said in his latest email that my choice in music makes him cringe!!!!

Bahahaha! Musical snob, he's just shut off so much of his personality. I say, after all the shit I've managed to scrape through, to the point of not even being able to enjoy music or television, I can bloody well listen to ANYTHING that makes me happy and feel like dancing.

I also sometimes think: Lady Gaga? Rihanna? The BSB (STILL????)

But I like a song, the beat or the lyrics, and there you are. Simple.

He puts too much of his identity in the music he listens to. As though it makes him superior. What-EVA! At least I don't listen to Nursehella like Imran does (haven't heard her, but she looks odd! TYPICAL!)

Sigh.... c'est comme une rêve.

Why did it have to be so premature: ended on 19th October, not even two months. By text. No discussion. Never even met.

So unfair.

*wants to cry, but cried out*
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