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I hereby thee dump - again.

4:14 pm, 18/10/10
Imran Lakha

Hmm...

I was walking towards Stanmore Country Park when I got this. I laughed a lot. I was going to reply saying, Interesting.

In a way, I wish I had done that, save a lot of drama.

10:59pm, 18/10/10

Suki isn't amused with Imran's literal take on a text a day. He receives a penalty ;) He owes her an email explaining why he feels he's being messed about :( Ws.

12:03 am, 19/10/10

Sukaina, do you know what they say about the Irish? If you don't, they say they are impervious to therapy - consider me among them in that capacity. As for sharing feelings, truly you have mistook me. Lastly, I respect your constant requirement for dialogue, I truly appreciate it. But I would rather we not continue it any further. I wish you all the best and Inshallah you will find a man who fits your needs. Ws, Imran.

As much as I hate to admit, my intuition is completely shot. I really thought he was my Travis.

Another thing, istekharas have a lot of truth in them. Doesn't mean I will be taking one out anytime soon. But they do have an inkling of truth in them. They must.

Still doesn't explain why Sadiq had a dream that I was getting married two weeks after Imran contacted me.

God, I fail all your tests. You know I do. I'm not that strong. I know willow trees are resilient, but there's only so much. Even willow trees can be broken.

Don't do this to me again, God. Just take my need for love away. I can't cope with the pain.

I'm in the bloody Careers Fair and all I can feel is a slow, constant, Chinese burn type of burning in my entire heart chakra, then it starts in my solar plexus chakra. Then it goes into my entire left arm, mostly the elbow and upper arm. Then my knees.

Burn.

Burn.

Burn.

After all, Aries is the Fire sign. So is Sagittarius.

FUCK YOU, IMRAN.

Good luck finding a female person who DOESN'T want to communicate, to talk.

I was so wrong. So fucking wrong. So fucking wrong.

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