What is this joy they keep talking about? This peace from Allah, it must be real. Allah who loves us like the Christians say but without the smugness? Without the self righteousness and the focus on just accumulating wealth? I’ve always thought that my way of living was a pious way, of thinking of being sad of being negative…… that it’s okay not to succeed, because Allah doesn’t want you to be proud. I’ve failed and I’m still full of pride and am so stingy I don’t pay my khums or my sadaqa, I gave money to someone that perhaps I was better advised not to. There’s no right answer at all.
I used to love to write, but there’s no meat in my words.
Control over my own emotions, that sounds something good and decent. Anger, envy, pride, sadness, laziness…. Even if Wayne Dyer says it.
I am so guilty about being so blind about all the things Allah gave me, taking things for granted.
Take responsibility, don’t blame other people and circumstances. They don’t help you to get past it now.
Self doubt: one life to live. Disliking yourself – what’s the point of disliking myself? Keeping myself miserable. Being a burden on another is selfishness. That is my reality. Loving yourself is selfish? A person who dislikes himself is the biggest burden around. Doesn’t know how to be happy, blaming others, doesn’t know how to be happy. Not to be better than others, in order for me to be happy I have to love myself. Authentic self acceptance. cherish yourself as a valuable significant person, unique and carry yourself that way.
Self rejection, always putting yourself down… rejecting compliments.
I believed it, that I’m not important enough, and I bought into it- even today. They didn’t do it to me, I allowed it to happen and now am no longer willing to reject myself.
Jealousy – what does it say about myself? Why would I allow myself to go through this unnecessary suffering and pain? I am no longer going to treat myself as a shabby person…. State of immobilization- deserving of satisfaction
Approval of others: others opinion more important than your own opinion of yourself. Others opinion doesn’t say who I am but must respect parents and elders.
I want, enjoy approval but I don’t need it.
I think the reason why we don’t have these types of speakers in shia islam is because we have this always in our heads we are sinners and only good comes from Allah. So how to have optimism then? Be a pleasant muslim.
Being trapped to the past: free yourself.
OH MY God: these motivational speakers are really not getting it right: don’t feel guilt at all? Are you kidding? “this is how I dress, this is who I am?” sorry, I choose not to believe in that. That is not true for me. Not for when it comes to my parents. But others, such as friends and strangers and enemies, yes.
Erroneous zone: does it immobilise me in the present? Answer is yes, then you have to work at it my darling Sukaina!
Fear of the unknown, prejudice against changing: staying with familiar as security.
Teacher in any form: when the student is ready, the teacher will appear. And things will pass you by until you’re ready.
Prejudging things: prejudging life. Something I couldn’t do, wouldn’t like. Openness to new experience. Do things. For you Sukaina, you have to DO things. Immobilised.
There is no such thing as outer security. There is only inner security. Inner direction. No security in outside world at all. All structures are unstable. Future is just a thought. Security from wealth and power – no. What happens when the people are no longer there, the food is no longer growing, the house is no longer there, the mother is no longer there.
Paralysis, if you believe imperfection. Paralysed all your life.
I can write, I am a good writer. I am an ethical writer, following the ahlul bayt’s codes of conduct.
Justice trap, demanding life be fair. You’re busy cultivating other peoples gardens instead of yours.
Why am I choosing not to do that?
Procrastination: stopping yourself from action.
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