The realisations are becoming more intense and meaningful. So glad, am I.
I am completely and utterly surrounded by negativity and I am sure that with my highly absorbent nature, this could be one of the prime reasons why I am who and where I am today. I am unable to transform it all into positivity or buffer myself from it all, news media and religious dogma included, that I just spout it right back out - and even more intensely.
I never believed the MBTI descriptions of INfps as being optimistic and wearing rose-tinted glasses. Because I am so negative and pessimistic. However, I am slowly making a mental (now digital) list of all the influential negative people and I have had and do have in my life:
My mother
My father
Both my aunts
My aunt's husband
These are defo the main players. But I count stressed-out, aggressive, anxious, depressed, passive aggressive, repressed and Bisy Backson (ref: The Tao of Pooh) hyper people as negative, too. They refuse to listen to you or themselves or the rhythm of the universe and drive you bonkers.
Again, my mother
And a few friends I've picked up on the way.
But then your friends and family are mirrors and reflections of who you are yourself. So.. what does that say about you, Sukaina? You've only been reborn since 21st March 2009. The new choices in relationships are going to be so much stronger and wiser and enlightened, for sure.
And what's worse is, as much as you'd love to just cut these people off from your life since they are such energy vampires (and you've effectively done so in the past), it no longer seems like the "right" option, because there is still some positivity in these toxic relationships. and the fact that these relationships were founded so long ago or so sincerely that getting out is impossible now.
Though, seriously, the continued contact with Mairy is just... unnecessary. I still say that. You can't really be that lonely, can you? *Note: must report what happened in my pseudo past-life-regression last Saturday (I thought it was an entire exercise in bollocks and don't believe it truly occurred - negativity, for sure, but that's how I feel and where I am right now - ever the cynic)
I am completely and utterly surrounded by negativity and I am sure that with my highly absorbent nature, this could be one of the prime reasons why I am who and where I am today. I am unable to transform it all into positivity or buffer myself from it all, news media and religious dogma included, that I just spout it right back out - and even more intensely.
I never believed the MBTI descriptions of INfps as being optimistic and wearing rose-tinted glasses. Because I am so negative and pessimistic. However, I am slowly making a mental (now digital) list of all the influential negative people and I have had and do have in my life:
My mother
My father
Both my aunts
My aunt's husband
These are defo the main players. But I count stressed-out, aggressive, anxious, depressed, passive aggressive, repressed and Bisy Backson (ref: The Tao of Pooh) hyper people as negative, too. They refuse to listen to you or themselves or the rhythm of the universe and drive you bonkers.
Again, my mother
And a few friends I've picked up on the way.
But then your friends and family are mirrors and reflections of who you are yourself. So.. what does that say about you, Sukaina? You've only been reborn since 21st March 2009. The new choices in relationships are going to be so much stronger and wiser and enlightened, for sure.
And what's worse is, as much as you'd love to just cut these people off from your life since they are such energy vampires (and you've effectively done so in the past), it no longer seems like the "right" option, because there is still some positivity in these toxic relationships. and the fact that these relationships were founded so long ago or so sincerely that getting out is impossible now.
Though, seriously, the continued contact with Mairy is just... unnecessary. I still say that. You can't really be that lonely, can you? *Note: must report what happened in my pseudo past-life-regression last Saturday (I thought it was an entire exercise in bollocks and don't believe it truly occurred - negativity, for sure, but that's how I feel and where I am right now - ever the cynic)
Today's affirmation
I will successfully complete the Islamic Counselling course in Birmingham.
This is the first step in my journey towards being an empathic healer for all those downtrodden and distressed and forgotten and abandoned.
Allah is my Saviour and Healer, as is Prophet Muhammad and his entire Pure and Holy Ahlul Bayt, from the first (Al-Murtadha) to the last (Al-Mahdi).
I am a reflection of Allah's glory and my purpose in life is to be a catalyst towards healing and harmony and peace and contentment and finding of one's purpose in this lifetime.
I have the sincerest intentions and I trust in Allah to make all things follow the right course.
And I love my kitties and fishies!
I will successfully complete the Islamic Counselling course in Birmingham.
This is the first step in my journey towards being an empathic healer for all those downtrodden and distressed and forgotten and abandoned.
Allah is my Saviour and Healer, as is Prophet Muhammad and his entire Pure and Holy Ahlul Bayt, from the first (Al-Murtadha) to the last (Al-Mahdi).
I am a reflection of Allah's glory and my purpose in life is to be a catalyst towards healing and harmony and peace and contentment and finding of one's purpose in this lifetime.
I have the sincerest intentions and I trust in Allah to make all things follow the right course.
And I love my kitties and fishies!
Yes, the last line shows you for sure that I made this all by myself. See, I wasn't ever able to make up my own affirmation before today. Alhamdulillah. Choku-rei. Go-Gratitude.
I better be awake at 11:11 today for the World Gratitude Ceremony.
I better be awake at 11:11 today for the World Gratitude Ceremony.
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