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Getting it Wrong


Isn't this cake the most glorious thing you've seen today?! *dribble*

I feel I am doing things wrong. Again.

Bloody energy vampires. Even the ones whom I think might have a spark of Soul within them say such ridiculous and UNNECESSARY things that either pinch, hurt or bewilder and then I must say to myself, "You must be having the same effect on them."

I want to reach out to certain people, but at the same time I think it must be their own selves who are pushing me away. Why does it always have to be this ambivalence.

So, if you feel, you shouldn't be reading something that I've written, don't. I'm tired of being afraid and tired of being careful.

If you don't like my haircut, keep it to yourself. I don't give a shit about my appearance, haven't you got that?

And I'll try to do the same.

If you don't want to loan me any money for my further education, so be it. I know I have taken a lot from you already. God will give me in abundance either through my working (happily) for it or through a loan from somebody else. Don't fucking kill my dreams with your bloody ESTJ negativity that has choked me my entire life and made me the fearful little weakling I chose to be today. I absolutely REFUSE to take in any more of your negative attitudes as truth or as a part of me.

I am annoying myself in so many ways. So, obviously I irritate other people even more.

I clear my Aura of all negative energies it has picked up today, through the internet, the telephone and in person. SCAT!

I Release all Criticism

I only give out that which I wish to receive in return.

My Love and acceptance of others is mirrored to me in every moment.



Dislike in yourself what you dislike in others. Imam Ali (as)

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