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Those are what I have to plan for, in case the Birmingham course thing doesn't pan out, and there are many reasons why that would happen. firstly is the fact that the never get 10-12 students willing to take the course. Secondly, finances. So, Firdaus Aunty said that I need to come up with alternatives, she got that feeling as she was doing the healing. I suppose, most of me knows that this won't pan out. Why? Loads of reasons.

Re-reading this, I see I've repeated myself twice. ha ha... not so optimistic are we? As I feel, I usually have such high hopes and dreaming about things panning out (why the hell am i thinking of pans, possibly because I want to bake a cake!) and that's what got me in trouble in the first place when I was in London on 2007.

Reasons why this may not happen:

  • The fact that they are not up to par when it comes to dealing with email inquiries - idiots.
  • I need more emotional healing, direction and life experience myself before I can work with others
  • If I totally rubbished therapy for myself after being in it the past 5 months, then how on earth will I be able to sincerely connect with another, when it's all about methods and techniques?
  • My advice sucks anyway
  • Issues with Papa
  • Missing mum and kitties like mad, even missing Karachi
  • Loneliness and SAD
  • Not being my pathway, even though I really, really want to be Sh Arif's student
  • Being overwhelmed with Khojas everywhere (which is actually funny, it has to do with choosing the life you want to experience but that's for another post)
  • Just me being here and my winter coats being there.

C'est la vie...

So I had Reiki level 2 today and as usual felt nothing physically or anything else. Delayed reaction. Am irritable like hell. So maybe that is the reaction. Apparently, I'm to go through another 21 days of clearing for this level too. W00t. Not!

I'm really not too sure about my alternatives. My mum got Rs 500 for the article she wrote about Montessori. Maybe I need to write crap that gets published and get some money.

Am tired so this is all I can come up with tonight. Till next time.


My Thoughts are Creative

I say "Out" to every negative thought that comes from my mind.

No person, place, or thing has any power over me, for I am the only thinker in my mind.

I create my own reality and everyone in it.

How apt is that? Ahahahaha!

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