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Didn't do much. Wasn't feeling well. But did have fun with kiddies and kitties. And got Rs. 2,000. Yay for me. Will celebrate properly one day in future with my peeps and in my way. Why not? Mad, Ameen to your email wish. The kids are my mum's Montessori kids, btw. I heart him, her... notsomuch. She reminds me a little of me when she's in a bad mood.


Today: I've been belly laughing and my heart feels lighter. Umair emailed me on the 14th, I was pleased. Even if the dipshit forgot my date. He writes:

yo,

happy birthday.

25 fuckin' years...seriously. aren't you getting depressed?

when is your birthday anyway?

take care.

Typical.... :)

I started homo-pathy medicines since Tuesday, after my Saturday slashing and the weeping for the entire frigging week, I told my mum what do I do? She told me, please take homeopathy, like I wanted you to since forever. So I agreed. Istekhara came out very good, the ayat referred to how Allah has not forgotten to add anything to the Holy Book. So let's see.

At least there's no more tremor and I can TASTE things. I ate Slims just now and my entire tongue is burning, that usually doesn't happen. I have this white coating all over my tongue usually.

I started the new blog. www.skyejacques.blogspot.com

It's kind of blah right now. Not quite gotten my voice yet. Let's see shall we. It's just another one of the many ideas that whizz through my head during my manic phases, of which I am in the middle of one right now. Along with going to London because I have spent good money on two winter coats, join Mind or create a Mind for Karachi and the list goes on and on and on....

I know that if I am to update my skills and gain qualifications, it is best to go to London. But I just can't stand my dad. And the government is going to shit. And they will vote in the Tories in the next election in 2011. and the witch hunting for British Muslims intensifies. Kya karein? Then again, yahan bhi konsi aisi baat hai? Although, today, I think I fell in love with Karachi and all it has to offer (of course, me not being poor and dispossessed and my family not yelling at each other for today, would be a factor in all of this).

Oh yeah, am also getting braces for my teeth. Watch out for Thomas the Tank Engine i.e. train tracks: choo choo! God, I am both looking forward to the end result and dreading the pain and the discomfort and basic ugliness before all that. Have to research dentists and prices now. Will so not be going to Tarzan's dentist.

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