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Personality indicators

According to my figure drawing analysis, these are the personality indicators, which as my psychologist told me, doesn't necessarily mean that I actually have them, but the propensity is greater for me to have these personality quirks as compared to any others.

*Feelings of inadequacy or guilt over failure to act correctly or the inability to act at all (not enough space to draw right hand of figure)
* Seductive (drawing of long eyelashes)
* Breast fixation (because I drew a circular - V neck on the t-shirt - go figure!)
* Problem with control of anger or primitive drives (drawing of long neck)
* Aspirations exceeds opportunities
* Environment viewed as excessively constraining
* Regression
* Oral eroticism
* Dependency
* Narcissism and paranoid delusions of grandiosity covered up by
feelings of inferiority
* Withdrawn
* Lack of confidence in productivity or social contact
* Inhibition
* Inadequate virility
* Refinement
* Immaturity

OK, so I am actually narcissistic (self-absorbed, self-in-love, myself as the be-all-end-all and everyone else go to hell kind of attitude) and I cover it by making myself feel inferior - that's a new slant, very unpleasant and distasteful to take in, but I am surely capable of that. I am after all, a scumb bag human who constantly thinks about things affecting her and writing consistently about my own feelings and thoughts. I'm no angel, though I wish I could be one.

It sounds very deceitful. My nafs deceiving the rest of me. Or me just very 'cunningly' (to use my dad's vocab) fooling myself to think I have low esteem when I actually think too much of myself or about myself. Narcissitic is such a negative choice of word. Paranoid delusions of grandiosity - haha.

Quite ouch-inducing. But, then again, aren't depressives and 4s self absorbed? True that.
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Tazeen Mohsin said…
Hey this HFD manual only gives negative stuff out. N each 1 of us has sth crazy to begin with. No matter wat any1 says..v r alittle mad with our own battles to fight...thats wat makes us unique
22 August 2008 at 19:13
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