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Day 29

... in the Big Brother house. After yet another eventful day, Sukaina is in the Diary Room.

"Hello, Big Brother. I don't know how much longer I can take this. It's not really the fact that I am still in the house, after my many tries to get voted out. I think the British public is getting its kicks by making sure I remain here for as long as is humanly possible."

She starts to cry.

"It's not really the fact that I am in the house, with the crazy inmates that the Big Brother management saw fit to choose for me. It's the fact that all the issues that I have been struggling to deal with in the outside world are magnified while in I am in here.

I have no escape.

I can't phone a friend, I can't talk to someone and tell them what my heart feels, I get no feedback from the real world. If anyone even cares about my ordeals in the house, there is no way of my ever finding out. Not until I leave.

I just hate it here.

It's like the bloody Standford experiment by Zimbardo in 1974 and I wish I had never volunteered for this. It's like living in a vaccuum."

Sukaina leaves the room, still in tears.

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