Who am I? Am I someone who is unnecessarily alienating everyone in my social circle, beginning with my family? My mum can't stand my voicing an opinion and retreats to yelling and screaming to get me to shut up. My aunt says things which I tend to take the wrong way, such as, "When you go to London, you're going to take all the magnets with you?" I doubt that it was a slip-of-the-tongue, though.
And then when I tell my mum that I need to get married because it's become compulsory on me, she said, "Well, you had your chance and you said no"...meaning that little thingy with the Syed last year.
So I told her, "I'd be divorced by now."
She said "No, Syeds never divorce."
So I said, "What, so it's alright for me lead a shitty life in a defunct marriage? My life would be horrible."
She then has the frigging gall to say, "No, you'd make his life miserable."
Seriously, with family like this, is it any fucking wonder I don't have an iota of self-esteem? I am beginning to think that it's all going to plummet once again. After weeks with a consellor and people like Aleisha and Fati building me up, it's all going to crumble into cookie dust (which I shall eat).
Fuck me, I feel entirely boxed in.
Sheba is a boy! He let me brush his coat for ten minutes and put ointment for his eye.
I really can't bear to write anything else. It's all going to be crap. I honestly feel like a worm's tit today, thanks to mother dearest. She doesn't even like me hugging or kissing her.
And then when I tell my mum that I need to get married because it's become compulsory on me, she said, "Well, you had your chance and you said no"...meaning that little thingy with the Syed last year.
So I told her, "I'd be divorced by now."
She said "No, Syeds never divorce."
So I said, "What, so it's alright for me lead a shitty life in a defunct marriage? My life would be horrible."
She then has the frigging gall to say, "No, you'd make his life miserable."
Seriously, with family like this, is it any fucking wonder I don't have an iota of self-esteem? I am beginning to think that it's all going to plummet once again. After weeks with a consellor and people like Aleisha and Fati building me up, it's all going to crumble into cookie dust (which I shall eat).
Fuck me, I feel entirely boxed in.
Sheba is a boy! He let me brush his coat for ten minutes and put ointment for his eye.
I really can't bear to write anything else. It's all going to be crap. I honestly feel like a worm's tit today, thanks to mother dearest. She doesn't even like me hugging or kissing her.