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Dreamless sleep

I woke up today, immensely grateful to my Lord that He gave me a sleep whereby I can't remember any dreams and I actually rested. I have been slightly obsessing over why M just stopped all contact with me and then I realised that I have forgotten to reply to some certain people in my life. So I did that first and then I am writing this.

This is a great mystery as to why all of a sudden he stopped. I re-read a few of his FB messages and he was really nice and spent time to say a few words, even if it was to say that he was busy. I hope he didn't think that I was stalking him or falling in love with him. Ha ha.

I am also becoming obsessed with the actor celebrities I am watching on "TV" these days. Like I have been thinking that Richard Armitage probably lives in the Morden/Wimbledon area and I just don't know which street *roll eyes please* and also wondering why I haven't seen any celebrities since I have come to live in London - granted, I spend all my days at home or in Morden....but still. I also half-considered going to the RSC to see The Seagull because Gandalf (Ian McKellan) and Romola Garai are in it.

God, Skye, first exit the house. Talk about pitiful low self-esteem.

Please don't regress into teenagerish behaviour. At least I am not obsessed with musicians - I just like their songs :)

Oh, and by the way, that book Sunbathing in the Rain is NOT a cheerful book. It is a crap book and quite disheartening. FUCK. I would prefer Threads of Hope to this crap.

Nothing much to add. It would be nice if tomorrow I wrote that I actually left the house and went for a walk. I at least took a bath and have changed today. All I really need to do is dry my hair, clean up my face and then leave (wearing shoes and coat and veil, of course).

Let's see shall we? Probably not, but it could happen. It's not like I have anything better to do right? I won't even meet any famous people on the street. Just look at the duckies and get my prescription and get some real crisps. That Sainsbury brand stuff is CRAP!

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