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The pain clutches my heart like a vice... strong and unrelenting. Once again, I escape into my dream world, isolating, assuming the position of Rapunzel in her ivory tower, but one who ends up cutting off her hair. Or the Paperbag Princess, defrocking into a grocery bag and showing her all, and it's still so harsh and raw... I look at the face in the pictures and it's the face of a stranger. That girl is a facet of me that is crazy, impulsive and I have no idea what to do with her. Sukaina: it is okay to cry. You're sad. So accept it.... Jeez, I have to write that review for Shamash. I hate this human existence................. too much confusion. Nothing is in neat piles. One thing's for sure: I demand certain things from others without giving them the same in return. Gratitude for Friday I still have my marbles. I'm no longer in a stressful "romantic" "relationship". I remember how to isolate and hermitise. You think you...

Review, reflect and realise what a big twat you've been. Crawl under your rock again. You already broke your phone accidentally on purpose. Another synchronous event... Get off of FB :) You're acting like a TWAT! This is a role you need to drop like a leaf again.... Good stuff. Nobody cares about World Mental Health Day. You didn't last year....

Today's I Ching for Imran Lakha The present is embodied in Hexagram 59 - Huan (Dissolution) : There will be progress and success. The king goes to his ancestral temple, and it will be advantageous to cross the great stream. It will be advantageous to be firm and correct. The second line, undivided, shows its subject, amid the dispersion, hurrying to his contrivance for security. All occasion for repentance will disappear. The third line, divided, shows its subject discarding any regard to his own person. There will be no occasion for repentance. The fifth line, undivided, shows its subject amidst the dispersion issuing his great announcements as the perspiration flows from his body. He scatters abroad also the accumulations in the royal granaries. There will be no error. The topmost line, undivided, shows its subject disposing of what may be called its bloody wounds, and going and separating himself from its anxious fears. There will be no error. The situat...

I really did think he'd never get back to me. That he'd hate me forever. He liked my FB status: Sukaina Juma ‎"It takes a lot of courage to show your dreams to someone else." - Erma Bombeck 16 hours ago · Comment · Unlike Like · View feedback (3) Hide feedback (3) You, Imran Lakha and Roisin Fergus like this. And he poked me! Imran Lakha · Poke back Although I was feeling angry and disdain towards him, no longer..... stupid thoughts.... argh!!! :):):):) Now as long as I don't play mind games with myself and think that there's a chance we'll be able to make it as husband and wife. The istekhara has totally messed with my mind on that count. I'll never be able to get it out of my head - ever..... Fuckit. Never taking them out again. And, also, I swear too much and am too sarcastic for his tastes. His text was so horrible... I'll add it later on.

I've envisioned myself being run over by a car or a bus three times already today. All in one day. I need help. Should I make a GP appointment tmrw? What fucking use will they be? Shall I call Samaritans? I don't know...... it's all coming back, all of it. Mostly it's the SAD, but the fucking stress doesn't help either....

Personal Daily Horoscope of Sunday, 3 October 2010 for Imran Lakha, born 28 November 1983 Send page Deeper understanding This quality of time will help you to develop a deeper understanding of those psychological areas that are connected with the experience of pain, suffering and rejection. This influence is especially well suited to so deepening the understanding of these interrelations that the first inklings of how to carry out a healing can be perceived. During this phase it is important to talk to other people who are interested in this theme. This time is well suited to penetrating the complicated connections and dependencies between human behavior, the psyche and early injuries - to differentiate between cause and effect -, whether for yourself or for someone who has confided in you. The interpretation above is for your transit selected for today: Mercury Trine Chiron, , exact at 16:54 activity period from 3 October 2010 to...

Is Imran Lakha being sincere to me? The present is embodied in Hexagram 62 - Hsiao Kuo (Preponderance of the Small) : In these circumstances which it implies, there will be progress and attainment, but it will be advantageous to be firm and correct. Action may be taken in small affairs, but not in great affairs. Like the notes that come down from a bird on the wing, to descend is better than to ascend. There will, in this way, be great good fortune. The first (bottommost) line, divided, suggests the idea of a bird flying, and ascending till the issue is evil. The second line, divided, shows its subject passing by his grandfather, and meeting with his grandmother - not attempting anything against his ruler, but meeting him as his minister. There will be no error. The situation is shifting, and Yang (the active masculine force) is gaining ground. The future is embodied in Hexagram 34 - Ta Chuang (The Power of the Great) : It will be advantageous to be firm and correc...